I am starting again what I left back in the year 2014 30 Day Letter Challenge (Yes, height of procrastination). I will be at peace once I complete it and am all about challenges these days. Let's start.
Dear Dreams,
You write on my blank slate of sleep most of the times. Since
many years you come in different form but the theme is same.
It is as if the movie is repetitive only with different characters. I stand helpless, defenseless every time. I
feel raw and bare, covering myself but no one can see through me, no one can see my
vulnerability. I walk in fear, absolute dreaded with each move. I am with
strangers. I don’t blame you. Over the period I realized and analysed, you are
my own subconscious state which I hide when I am awake. I stay silent with the
fear people won’t understand me losing opportunities. I hide my
emotions with the fear of breaking down. I put a veil of being happy sometimes when
I am not. The rope is
knotted tight around my waist and I am standing on the edge of the bridge. The
whooshing sound of air thuds my ears. The furious waves down below roar
and my heart beat aloud against the chest. I feel as if I have never been alive
till now after the thudding heart beats. I am standing still breathing
heavily. There is no one with me only
the tight rope of fear. I struggle and want to be free from it but I don’t know
how to swim. The rope is actually aiding me to be alive. But you know what? The
rope is only around my waist leaving the other end free. No one is holding it, it isn't tied to anything.It isn’t helping me rather poisoning
me with my own fear. The waves are my dreams, my goals. One step and I
will be near them. The only thing is to overcome my fear and jump.
Yours’ truly and deeply,
The one who will seize you soon.
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