Sunday, December 25, 2011

To You, My Love

"I Love You"

I love you as a lover who treasures a rose in his diary. Rose, whose fragrance goes away, but continues to emit sweet aura of memories.

You listen to my ramblings, my muse, my rants, my cribbing in utmost serenity.

Within you resides my confessions, some unconfessed emotions & also the darker side of me.

There are few secrets, I haven't told you about. I have kept those in between my heart beats, which cannot be heard. Only felt by me. They are alive till I am. They will perish when my heart stops beating.

You are Me, My reflection, though that will be oblivious one day. But you will live on.

Cause You have my soul, who never dies even if I turn to ashes.

I have never written a letter to the one who paints my life's  canvas with colors. Among which I think his favorite is black sometimes ;)

He knew I needed someone like you. You do not wipe my tears, but let them fall & eases the burden on my heart.

Happy Birthday to you, My dearest Blog.


You made me fall in love with words. Words that connects hearts,and the ones who is familiar with its subtlety.

You made me realize, the first step to love someone is to love thyself.

You live within me. You shall live forever without me, embracing my essence.

Forever Yours,
Beyond Horizon


I am never lonely here. I have wonderful friends like you. Yes! Yes, the one who is reading :)

This blog reconnected with my best buddy...Manshaa. Its going to be 10 yrs we haven't met. But here we are face to face, to each others 'Other Side'. What best can get than this! I am  gonna celebrate my blogs birthday this year with you. Hope to meet you soon, real soon :D

I talk with some of you almost each day. 

Eon Heath :P 
I just want to say Thank You, will not do much of chapar chapar. Keep Giggling & I am missing those giggles :)

Yeah! Yeah...My Sweet little dumb head friend..How can I forget you TOSM
We are in the same time zone now yet we cannot meet :( 
But I loved hearing your sweetest voice. I wish..Hum jaldh milenge. Miss ya <3

Thank you so much for always being here with me from beginning. I am sure our bond of friendship will keep strengthening by each coming day :D

My friends circle in blog-o-sphere is getting bigger & stronger by meeting you guys :

Swati Thampan My Silent Friend:) , Lilangel Sweet & Brilliant subtle poems Deepika (You create magic with your words) Sarah (soon to be fellow colleague ;), Gargi G2..Love short form of your name :) Fatima (Bubbly chatter box) Vaisakhi(Most innovative) Angel (Lots of Love & Friendship :D
Valli (Sparkly Angel) Moonlight (You are moonlight & I am Moon ;) Simran (Little gal), Tanvi (Cutest gonna be Doc )  
Menachery (Tinu <3 You),  :-Dee (Smiling gal) Susie (Ahh! Your poems), Janet (Our small conversation & thoughts)  
Princesa Fiona <3 your sonnet ;) Cяystal many sides of you :) Pee Vee(Chocolate obsessed :D
Prateek (unwisely wise :P) Kunal (Yours Beautiful imagination ;) SUB (Posts I wouldnt have thought about) Pandian (Few words)

I am a silent reader to few blogs, but won't mention here. Cause I won't remain a silent one ;)

Merry Christmas & Happy New year. Best Wishes & Lots Of Love To You All

Please! Please! Please! Do not leave me alone or Forget Me 
                         


P.S. I never say 'No' to presents :P

Wrapping this year with the heart warming melody which is close to my heart
"Jiyo, Khush raho, Muskuraon...Kya Pata Kal Ho Na Ho"

                                                                     Gift Me Some Smiles &




sonu nigam - KAL HO NAA HO .mp3


Found at bee mp3 search engine


To my dear non hindi listeners :)
                           


Lady Antebellum - Hello World .mp3


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Thursday, December 22, 2011

Dark Secret Behind Its Eyes


I am standing at the crossroad we met. I had promised myself, I will never turn back. 

What happened?

Why do I see myself on the same path? 

Did I never moved on?

Was I walking in circles? 

Or unwillingly I have trodden?


Piercing gaze of those eyes
Preying my mind
Who is it in disguise?

My feet nailed to ground
Swiftly it slided
Black robe confined around

Smirk in a ear
Shiver down my spine
Husky voice, I could hear

Handsome rage dancing in its eyes
Singing, "You have been possessed"
Scarred fingers muffled my cries

Frigid breathe on neck
Sniffed my skin
Resurrected from past to break

To break my will
To break my conscience
It is here to kill

Its poisonous pang corroding the skin. Flaring as it swims into my veins, charring my insides.

It was drinking my exuberant spirit. I stood as if deceased.

Shrieking laugh echoed the room. Snapped me back from lifeless trance.

It was drooling with jealousy, the look so greedy.

I had been confronted by my own 'Guilt'.


I know
You are life for someone else

But
This Guilt
Smudges my present
Flaming the resentment

It captivates me
When I think
'Dreaming of You'

When I question
'Why can't I be with you?'

When I say
'I Miss You'

Saturday, December 3, 2011

Sojourn

Have you ever felt solace among the strangers? No questioning eyes. No fear of judging you.

My journey in a train, best moments of solace of everyday life begins with music filling my ears. Tunes soothing my soul,flowing in my mind and rejuvenating it as rain drops falls on thirsty barren earth.

My toes are tapping on the beats of 'Hiding My Heart' by Adele. Have you seen her? An inspirational personality. She had said once"People are starting to go on about my weight but I'm not going to change my size because they don't like the way I look."

What is beauty? Does "Beauty lies in the beholders eyes" sounds rusted as it's quoted over and over again? Practicality haven't touched it yet.  


"Everything has its beauty, but not everyone sees it"

I close my eyes, pondering over many such questions. The wind ruffles my hair lovingly and blowing away the obscurity. This is beauty! I can feel it.

I hear the wind saying notoriously, "Hey beautiful! Where is your smile?" ;)

Dimpled smile twinkling in my eyes envisioning the most awesome scene of the travel : The creek.

Dancing tidal waves, wind touching the surface creating ripples, clouds showering its love, droplets caressing my severed skin and dripping away the pain within..

Warmth of the sun, reflection of the moon, romanticizing night as if whispering to me, "We love you" and the James Morrison's track "I won't let you go"starts to play in my mobile. 

Alluring, elegance of the horizon always make me wonder. The union of sky and earth is an illusion.

Is destiny like the horizon? Do you believe in it? If certain thing is out of the bound of my imagination, I depend on it. I am not talking where prime requirement is of hard work.

I had a conversation with a friend on this, who had said,"if destiny works...good enough...if no..then you are on your own..in getting what you want...holding onto destiny won't bring you closer to destiny...it just means..that for few things..you are counting your destiny/fate to help you....but even for that...we have to make our moves ourselves"

The reply made me rethink. What's your say on it?


Fear of unknown
What's this sinking feeling about?
Colors all around
Why does black feels more friendly?
Sounds of laughter
Why the waves of anguish?
Emotions are not camouflaged
Then
Why do happiness seems to be a mirage?


My last stop is arriving, I bookmark the page of 'Pride & Prejudice'. How will you distinguish pride from vanity? As they say, "A very thin line" :D

The train halted. I won't call it as "My destination", cause I will be on this journey again...in My Mumbai's lifeline <3

As I step down, I keep humming,
"I believe in the sun, even though it slowly rises
I believe in you, even without realizing
I believe in the rain, though i see no cloud in the sky
I believe in truth, even though everybody lie"





 Agnee, Parikrama and Shilpa Ra - I Believe .mp3
Found at bee mp3 search engine

Friday, November 18, 2011

Heal My Wounds


Yearning died
Voice muffled


Talks, annoys
Closeness, vexes


Words, those words
Torments


Silence, stings
Tear me apart
Wait!
I can't feel it


I hate that reflection
Truth or Lie?
Happy or Compromise?


Eyes deceives
My own reflection
Betrays me


Those tears, unyielding I see
Stubborn, adamant
Soulless,Heartless
I remain


Weary of this mask
Lost, I am


Screaming silence
Shatters the mirror
Melting eyes, haunts


Sardonic, My smile
Cynical, My laugh


Cold as a stone


I would rather be hurt
than feel no pain
I would rather be hurt
than feel no pain


P.S. I know after exactly 2 months this Beyond Horizon has arisen. The storm had taken its toll inside, so I had to calm it, and whats better place than this, My Abode...My Solace :D

As for the post, read it with the thought as someone says "momentary emotions" ;)

I hope to arise again soon.

Immerse yourself in this lovely tune by Poets Of The Fall-  Beautiful Ones



Friday, September 16, 2011

The Last Song



Amiable musical breeze,
Tranquil moon behind the clouds,
What a transcendental sight!

Million stars befriending me,
As I am writing this silent symphony,
In magnificent yet so lonely night

Shuffling through pages of past,
Replaying somber tunes,
Tearing one by one,
Burning torn pieces,
Blowing away the ashes

I know,
It can’t reincarnate,
but
It won’t gnaw me within,
It won’t tear me apart,
anymore

How I wish,
Those emotions shouldn’t have born!
Once ecstatic, later repressing,
I killed them,
Living with no serenity,
How I wish,
Those emotions shouldn’t have born!

Mind numbing pain, escalating,
My feelings as autumn leaves,
Shedding from heart,
Crumbling, crushing on path

Drizzling raindrops,
Hurts my dried eyes,
Immersing neither hides the pain,
Nor abates it,
I continue to wander,
Still breathing

Future obscure,
Eagerness died away,
For the wait,
That tomorrow embraces,
and
For vision of what lies Beyond Horizon

Warmth burns me,
Cover me with blanket of cold & peace

I wish for,
Calm sleep than shattered dreams

Tonight,
I close my eyes,
While the horizon is dark,
Rhythm now evanescent,
and
I have ended The Last Song


This beautiful song Wait For Sleep, shared by my Best Buddy Manshaa :)
 "In with the ashes
Or up with the smoke from the fire
With wings up in heaven
Or here, lying in bed
Palm of her hand to my head
Now and forever curled in my heart
And the heart of the world"



Dream Theater - Wait for Sleep .mp3
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Thursday, September 1, 2011

There's Only One Story, The Story Of Their Life


“Stories are as unique as the people who tell them, & the best stories are those in which the ending is a surprise.” By Nicholas Sparks, Book: The Choice

Here I come with the final part of the love series, after long time. An end which is a beginning in itself. 
Part 1: CHANGE?!

My heartfelt gratitude to my friend Eon Heath, who blogs at The Silhouette & Kuch Madhosh Pal, helped me in completing the final part of this series. Its through his writings,I have learned to read between the lines. As he says,” Hiding behind this veil, are emotions untold...”

Thanks a lot Eon :) 

The first half of the post is written by Eon Heath, and the song selection of 'Lonely Nights' is by him.

Their Story...

He was still living with those few moments they spent together. How he wished he could tell her then that he didn’t have to use his imagination to sing, that song had always been for her.


The days passed. Each still holding tightly to the words whispered in silence. Those words unsaid were understood. Yet never reciprocated nor acknowledged, for fear of tainting the glass window that let them see each other.

“Why do people fall in love?”


Now-a-days it was hard not to think, hard to keep it buried in.

He just continued to gaze at her, with that smile playing on his lips. The smile that she despised in his presence and dream about, in his absence.

“Answer me please. Why do we fall in love?”

“We don’t decide whether to love someone or not, it just happens. And that is the beauty of it.”


“Even if it’s not meant to be?”


She knew it better than to ask. But still she needed to hear his words, not to be strong herself, but to give him the strength to carry on.


“What does it mean when we say that ‘Its not meant to be?’ We don’t love someone with a clause of that love to be requited, nor do we plan the destiny of the love beforehand and then plunge into it. Love is not something that has an end. Love stays. And it needs not two, but just one heart to nurture it.”


Those words reaffirmed her belief that she will always be loved.

Love is bliss,
Like an untimely rain,
I wanna feel it in you...
The summer rain,
I wanna feel it with you...

You may not walk with me,
I know..
But I carry you everywhere
Deep in my heart,
I carry you home...

He yet again resigned to the dark night. Another day was added to the years that had passed. And still the ritual continued. Looking for that face in the starlit sky. Before, he never understood what about the night sky was so enchanting to the inamoratas; now he was one of them...The night had become his companion, to live the part of her which was his forever. Her memories.

For i know,
Under the silent sky
When the stars shine down
You are mine
And you’ll be alive
In me...

Scorpions - Lonely Nights .mp3
Found at bee mp3 search engine

© Eon Heath


The dazzling waves did not twinkle in her eyes in this evening.

Days passed by, what resided within her are the moments, the moments they had lived together gazing at the elegant twilight.

But the iridescent colors across the horizon are not consolatory and tranquilizing anymore, since he is not besides her.

She missed his tenderly look, his enthralling voice. She missed him as if her life has ceased.

The societal shackles uprooted the tree, their love.

Tonight and every night, she holds dear his memories. But being forlorn, she poured her feelings once again.

Ferocious storm,
Took away your love

Dried leaves,
Dying memories

Crushed flowers,
Essence of hatred

Raining hailstones,
Cut through my skin,
Bleeding,
Still standing,
Coz
I can’t feel the pain

Crimson River,
No ocean to meet,
No shore to end

Waited for dawn,
It never rose,
I Lost Hope

Someone stole the Star,
I can’t feel You

Life like starless sky,
We couldn’t even say goodbye

Tunes forgotten,
Music died.

She is hurt. She is broken, but she has no reason to be angry with anyone, as Love can never hurt a soul. It can never be stolen.

Because of You,
I knew What Love is
Love is abiding,
Love is enduring…

What keeps us alive is Love,
What keeps our souls entwined is Love…

Stars began to shine down in the enchanting sky, singing the forgotten melody.

She could hear the perennial music of love once again.

The brightest star winked at her and she smiled. Finally saying “Good Bye To YOU”




© Beyond Horizon

Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous. Love is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It does not take offense and is not resentful. Love takes no pleasure in other people's sins, but delights in the truth. It is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope, and to endure whatever comes. (A Walk To Remember)

Sunday, August 14, 2011

The Reason...

Breach deep within,
Blazing my mind,
Sinking in the drought,
Outdistanced from core of life

Your words, foreshadowed
Allaying alienation,
Smothering pain,
Cascading barren mind,
Rejuvenated bliss


Veil of ignorance,
I wear,
I know,
Its not fair

Though
Not truly hiding,
Just taken a step back,
Turn around,
You will see me standing

How I wish to say Sorry to you!

A sole tie,
Where pain flows,
It hurts to hurt you

Smile,
I had lost somewhere,
The Reason I Smiled again,
The Reason for the serenity,
The Reason is You
My Friend




"I've found a reason to show, A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do, And the reason is you" The Reason By Hoobastank



Hoobastank - The Reason .mp3
Found at bee mp3 search engine

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

Zestful in Desolation...


Forsaken in crowd,
Wandering lonely as a cloud.
Emotions being thrust,
But 
The cloud will never burst.

Emptiness, have no fear,
Am alive, Its dear.
Engulfs my whine,
Eyes, have no brine.

Darkness, my solace,
Silence, I embrace.

Midst of deserted,
It still can be quoted,
"Life is Beautiful"
It indeed is Beautiful...

Isn't it?



Tuesday, July 12, 2011

I'll Be Waiting...


Bright blue sky turned gray,
Refreshing air came my way...
Far across the seas,
It brought me a message...
As the grass caressed by the dews,
I saw a pleasant visage...

Thunderous clouds,
Will there be
Rendezvous of two worlds?
Breathe on the glass,
I drew half heart...
As the sand flows in hourglass,
Waiting for the heart that's apart...

The wait, its long...
Is it painful?
Yes!
But
Its graceful...

Downpour swept away the pain,
Enliven, I remain...
Wait now ephemeral,
Clasped emotions, I did let go...
Vows till eternal,
Envision a future, like a rainbow...

I'll be Waiting for the Heart,
Who will complete My Heart...


You must have come to know that am obsessed with music, so here again am sharing this lovely song, expressing An Abide...Right Here Waiting :)



Richard Marx - Right Here Waiting .mp3
Found at bee mp3 search engine

Friday, July 1, 2011

Something inside...



Fire doesn't warm me,
Water doesn't soothes me...

My mind still as a calm ocean,
No ripples of waves,
No tide to soar...

Somethings broken,
Was it ever one?

Past, a kaleidoscope,
Happy, alive,
Like those brightening colors...

Today, a white canvas,
Waiting for the one to paint it,
With Love & Care...
As red of a rose,
Green of trees,
Blue of the sky,
Black of the night,
Making it lively and bright...

Pain never flowed from eyes,
Deep in my heart,
I poured it through  my words...

My words were always for you,
Now,
Its hard to find You in them...

Have the pain numbed me?
Or
Have I became resistant to it?

I had no fear of losing You,
I knew You were never mine...

Then,
Why did the distance hurt?
Why was missing you painful?

Were the feelings all delusions?
Or
Did I ever Loved You?

Something inside,
saying,
You are not the one 
who will walk beside,
You are not the one in my heart,
who will reside...


I wrote this after reading the post First Love... It has the elegance and everything about first love,but these were the only words I could pen down.


"No matter how much she came to love him, if she did, she would have to let him go. It was the only way to love him. Loving him meant never holding him, as well as letting him go, and she knew that to the roots of her soul.  People never 'have' each other. "....from the book 'The Miracle' by Danielle Steel.



My friend had shared this beautiful song, Something inside. I would love to share it with you all too :)



August Rush - Elgar / Something Inside .mp3
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