19 Self-assessment Questions To Open Your Mind in 2019

The credit for the following images and questions goes to marc & angle HACK LIFE. I have just answered them here. I admire their work, their articles and emailers. I still reread their ebook on 30 Things to Start Doing for Yourself to remind myself of Self-love.

Let me refocus and start answering!

1.

A human who is on the verge of becoming cold-hearted but still believe in the power of hope.

2.

Life (itself)!

3.

Stop caring for other's opinion & thinking.

4.

Love.

5.

Life. Again.

6.

Confrontation.

7.

Time.

8.

Money. (What else?)

9.

Break the obligations in a relationship.

10.

Being content with what I have.

11.

Myself.

12.

Money.

13.

"She believed she could. So she did."

14.

Pessimist.

15.

Being alone and the feeling of "not being loved".

16.

How the two H's in my life made me feel. 

17.

Living each day to the fullest despite the "what I don't have & what I couldn't have".

18.

Our friend circle of 3, friendship for 8 years, celebrated respective wedding anniversary in December, for one = 7 years, for two = 6 years.

19.

Life is beautiful!

Just A Reminder

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How long will you remain entangled

in between

"what if's?"

"I wish"

It is time to cut those obligations, darling!

What do you think?

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Can Self-love (ever) overtake the feeling of being loved?

Blogiversary & Guest Post (Pending since 7 years)

It has been 9 years of penning down my emotions here. I can say this blog has seen the brightest and the darkest days of my life. I haven't been consistent in writing if you see the blog archive on the right side. 2018 brought the consistency in writing because a lot has changed. I shall sum it up in the last post: 2018 - The Year That Was.

Let me Thank You for reading and staying with me for 9 years. There are many silent readers. I am grateful to each one of you.

I am lost for words. Thank you once again and Christmas wishes to everyone.

Photo by Carl Attard from Pexels

To celebrate this blogiversary, following is the guest post by Eon Heath which he had written for me almost 7 years back. Our friendship holds a special place in my life.  I am sure you won't even read this but your post deserves my gratitude. Better late than never!

P: Pata hi nahi chala tumse chapar chapar kiye ek saal ho gaya!!

E: Bas ek hi saal hua?? :P Toh kya ab anniversary manana hai??

P: Haan. :P

E: Guest post??

P: Awesome idea!!

E: I know am awesome.. :P

So, after the above conversation and my awesome brainy coming up with this not so awesome idea of writing guest posts, here I am, the sincere me doing my part of the bargain!! *poor me*

Well, to think of it, girls are pretty weird to some extent. (not all of you!!) Do, you people really keep a tab of how long you have been talking ot someone? Or is it just the case with doctors keeping tab of their victims? ;-) [I think a few scalpels are being sharpened at this moment..] My opinion, its just doctors… :D

Err, well, if I rewind my life and kinda think about all the sooper awesome thingy that I did in the not so recent past, me thinketh, pestering Poonam.doc was what kept me going during all the not so good times of my life. And on her part, she has definitely got a lot smarter being in my company. (This doesn’t mean you can keep my brainy forever) Well, it’s a secret actually, I have lent my sooper awesome brainy to her for quite sometime now.. ;-)

To be honest, its comforting to know that there are people with whom you can be the stupid self and not be judged. {Now you know why I didn’t ask to see your doctors degree.. :P ] Just call them up at 2 or 3 in the night and ask them if they are sleeping…

I don’t know how its gonna be tomorrow, but for today I would say, I didn’t have to think about what i needed to write here. It is all It is.

Eon eon,

Yes Poonam?

Smoking cigarettes?

Yes Poonam..

:-/

NOT FAIR!!! ARENT YOU SUPPOSED TO LIE FIRST??

:P

Hehehehehehe….

p.s.: Am glad to have you in my life.  take care.

What Makes You Smile? What Makes You Happy?

How often do we stress about the big things in our life? All the time?! Sigh! whereas we forget the small things in our day-to-day life that makes us smile and happy.

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I am sharing 100 little things that make me Smile & Happy, some are gifts from nature and few are things I never realized before making the list which makes me happy.

Here it goes...

1. Reading the last chapter of a book
2. To-do list
3. Quotes
4. Preparing healthy recipes
5. Clean refrigerator
6. Smell of a new book
7. Sticky notes
8. Airplanes
9. Flowers
10. Clean sheets
11. New haircut
12. Hallmark and Disney movies
13. Butterflies
14. Ice cream
15. Bookstore
16. Diyas / Lanterns
17. Window seat in a train
18. Rain drops
19. Printables
20. Handwritten letters
21. Scrolling through old chats
22. Paper handbags
23. Painting nails
24. Moon gazing
25. Candid photos
26. Snuggling in bed during rains
27. Office supplies
28. Opening parcels
29. Waking up without an alarm
30. Old photographs
31. Finding perfect gift
32. WhatsApping my best friend
33. Perfect selfie
34. Favorite song playing on radio
35. Surprises
36. Email from bloggers
37. Smile of a baby
38. Offering seat to aged
39. Smell after first rain
40. Lying in bed doing nothing
41. Puppies
42. Baby clothes
43. Stock photos
44. Horizon
45. Chalkboard
46. Cute cutleries
47. Flawless eyeliner and kohl eyes
48. Tea (made by me)
49. Adele songs
50. Fox life and TLC shows
51. Painting
52. Sea water brushing against feet
53. Windchimes
54. Fairylights
55. Face masks
56. Grocery shopping
57. Pinterest
58. Podcasts on Player FM
59. Completing challenges
60. Writing in my online journal - Journey
61. Stripped Tops
62. The Color - Purple
63. Scrolling through books in library
64. Canva
65. Glitter eyeshadows
66. Guitar
67. Solitude
68. Candles
69. Gratitude
70. Peacock feather
71. Pasta
72. Bubbles
73. Yummy smell while passing by a restaurant 
74. Long nap ;)
75. First sip of lemonade on a hot day
76. Song resembling life
77. Rainbow
78. Text from someone I was thinking of
79. Going through school report cards
80. New dress
81. Owls
82. Shells
83. DIYs
84. Bossing my dad :D
85. Necklace
86. Rangoli
87. Hot fomentation after tiring day
88. Smoothies
89. Placing water for birds
90. Direct shower on head and back (relieves the stress, trust me!)
91. Capturing life moments
92. Footwear (I am junkie when it comes to footwear but H restricts me from buying, ‘coz there in no space to keep them)
93. Chirping sparrows
94. Plants
95. Chocolates during PMS
96. When H pays the bill for my shopping (lol)
97. Waking up on holiday
98. Candle-lit dark room
99. Sunflower
100. Kid holding my finger

I hope some of the things made you smile while reading. I am sure your list may vary from this. Do share few of yours and spread happiness.

‘This post is a part of Write Over the Weekend, an initiative for Indian Bloggers by BlogAdda.’ 

When He Came As A Raging Storm

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Every time 

He came as a raging storm

She bloomed as a sunflower

Exuberant 

Vibrant

You Always Leave Me Behind

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I understand

People will come and go

It hurts

Watching you leave

and

Keep coming back

Maybe one day

You will come

to

Stay Live forever

Scars

Scars on my body

Define 

My struggle

My endeavor

My loss

Alone Not Lonely

If you do not understand 

"I like being alone"

You aren't familiar with - 

Solitude is bliss!

Falling apart

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Things are falling apart

Slowly

As in a slow motion

Giving them the power

To hurt deeper

How Would Be A Perfect Day?

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Perfect day - 

Road trip

&

'Dil Diyan Gallan (Unplugged)'

The only sound between us

Your Addictions

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I hate your addictions

Yet, I love you!

Why?

Set Your Soul Free

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If you find any relation like an anchor dragging you down,

It is time to break that chain!

Till Death Do Us Part

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Two souls

Stay together

Like each other

But can't 'live' together

They aren't the ones for - 

"Till death do us part"

Ruthless

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They call me ruthless

Little do they know

It helps me

Keep going

Bewakoof?!

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The Beautiful Silence

They were standing next to each other under the lilac blue sky. The charcoal cloud swirls looked like a matt photograph. The turquoise blue river stream was shining unabashedly brilliant and hypnotic.  The warmth of their bodies and the majestic nature  were the version of perfect evening far from the hassles in their life.

There was a galaxy of fireflies above them, the only soothing source of light. Her elbow grazed across his arm while reaching for a firefly. He looked from the corner of his eyes and smiled. She was staring at the glinting little colorful light, happiness sparkled in her eyes.

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The only movement were the dancing fireflies and their slow breathing. They both had their thoughts at switch-off mode. What mattered was this moment of being with each other. 

The blanket of silence enveloped their souls. It was comforting, the thousand unsaid words were understood. Their life back in the city will shatter the silence, so they embraced it tighter - their beautiful silence.

Break Me

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Break me million times

Just to feel alive

What if I hurt you?

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There was something about the moonlight which made her happy and sad at the same time.

She: What if I hurt you? Will you forget me?

He: (a mischievous smile dancing on his lips) Well, then you would be giving me a new reason to fall in love with you all over again.

Happy, because he was with her. Sad, because he will be gone, loving her more than ever. 

Let Go

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Sometimes it is better to forget let go 

certain memories 

even though they had made you happy 

(once)

The Gift

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And she felt - 

Life has cursed her with the gift of Love!

Her Glassy-eyed Stare

She was staring afar. She wasn’t blinking. Her eyes looked as if anesthetized.

He: Hey! (He revived her from the reverie by touching her hand)

It was strange, she wasn’t startled as if she knew where she was and yet lost. She looked straight in his eyes.

She: You know what I want now? I want a glass of wine or shots of vodka would be better. I want to drown in reality.

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He dreaded her glassy-eyed stare. Never did he witnessed such expression in the years he had known her. For the first time, he was scared. What will happen when he will let her go?

Heart Or Brain In Love

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And maybe someday I might find the reason 

why fate threw us apart

But for now

I shall keep cursing the time

I acted under obligations 

shoved you away 

breaking each other's heart

Forever

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I don't want to experience ‘forever’, 
except when I am in your arms

Remember The Night We Met!

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Remember the clinking of glasses

the sharp taste of firewater

Remember the frivolous talks

the mirth in it

Remember the hesitancy

the entwined fingers

Remember the stare

that pierced my heart

Remember the brush of lips

the tight snug

Remember the warm breath on skin

the cease of ‘what ifs’

Remember the wound of love

the ecstasy in the kisses

Remember the caresses

the deep touch within

Remember the night we met

when we became 'one'!

Love Is An Illusion

Forget Me

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Forget

The day we first met

And forget

The path walked together

Forget

I make you smile

And forget

The secrets we share

Break the mirror

If you see my reflection

And turn all the memories

into dust

Do not feel me

in the raindrops

in the spring winds

in the autumn leaves

Do not find me

in the footprints on sand

in the ocean waves

in the crystal moon

Let the dust

ripple over my name

Forget how it sounds

For what should be left

is a white noise

Forget the aisle

I am no longer waiting

Before I leave

I will make sure

I am gone from your mind

If you suddenly say

"still waiting for you"

with roses in hand

Running towards you

I will lift my arm

To never touch you

To never tell you,

"If you ever turn

I am here for you

I was always for you"