Tuesday, April 12, 2011

# BEYOND HORIZON # FREEDOM

The One I Loved, Now I am Scared of...

Don't ask me the reason for what I'm writing today,
I may not be able to answer it,
I have come far away.

Emotions are swirling,
Thoughts are varying,
It's difficult to pen them down,
Let my fears get drown,
Never did I want to feel like this!
Where is the Bliss?

Don't ask me the reason for what I'm writing today,
I may not be able to answer it,
I have lost something! 



Solitude : My Solace,
Taught me,
Life is not about living like an Ace,
Seek answers yourself,
Gracefully you have to face,
But
It's Scorching My Soul,
Pain taking its toll,
No eyes to see it,
Coz There is no wound to be seen,
It's deep within!

Staring at My Reflection,
Who are you?
The only question!
This can't be me,
No, It can never be!
I have lost 'Being Me'

Am I living for someone else?
Do I Smile just for a sake?

Let me be "Me",
Is all I wanted to be!
I am feeling so lonely today,
I have come far away!

Yearning,
To be heard,
To be seen,
To be felt!

Look in my eyes,
You will see the distant hurt,
Unveil the Pain behind My Smile,
Hold me close for a while!

Solitude: Once My Solace,
The One I Loved, Now I am Scared of!







34 comments:

Alka Gurha said...

It is so touching and beautiful, especially when you say hold me for a while...

Eon Heath said...

Hey, Hi
hmmm, touching lines..they accpet teh pain yet want to be freed, even if for once..let feel that bliss, solace in solitude...

You penned it beautifully...
:)

Regards,
The Silhouette...

Valli said...

Wow!.....beautifully penned..:'(
I feel like I'm reading my feelings...

Blood Is Red said...

Have been feeling it for the past one week!!:(


Anyways,it's nicely penned!!!

P.S : like the new layout of your blog:)

Beyond said...

In my solitude you haunt me
With reveries of days gone by
In my solitude you taunt me
With memories that never die....

read this lines of a beautiful song. Solitude is a blessing in disguise, it gives time to self-introspect, time to love self, live selflessly.. it's no pain its a gift of time

subtlescribbler said...

wow..just stuck the cord and made it sing in melancholy! they say love is never afraid nor does it attempts to change but then life is not a straight path of blacks n white and things differ...and then the only solace is within our own self. beautiful thought poonam di :)

sarah

Rajesh said...

Very sensitive.

4 those who care said...

beautiful! dont have better words to express. your poetry jsutifies those times when it becomes difficult to emote,yet you want to speak and write volumes. lovely!

Ritz.. said...

Magnificently Wrote .....So profound yet simply expressed ... I just loved this .....
Once my solace ... Now Scared of..
Beautiful


Ritz..

Alcina said...

Aww..it is full of pain and wanting..It's good to be alone sometimes..may be the me understands the need for you and comes back very soon :)

The image makes it all the more soulful :)

tc
keep smiling always!!

m7 said...

awww........if that's how u feel, hope u feel all better very soon. tc. *hugs*
and otherwise, wonderful poetry.

Sourav said...

Now I know why you thanked me, hope you got the message!

Try living, as you want. Trust me life is a lot more beautiful and so are you! :)

Deepika said...

Solitude shouldn't be anyone's solace.. That person would did alive.
Hold me for while before i wither away.. The feel is beautiful di.. Just so enchanting and piercing.
I am searching for the lost 'me'.. Touching one.

Blasphemous Aesthete said...

The pain of the past, in moments of solitude often do revisit us and we just wish they could pass without hurting. But seldom do we succeed in letting go, and rarely in avoiding the angst and pain.
I won't ask you why you wrote today, because, sometimes, silence is the better way to communicate.

Regards,
Blasphemous Aesthete

Fatima said...

Just dunno what to write...your words express so much, pain and solitude and somewhere I found hope too...

I'm just falling short of words...at the moment.

Take Care.

Beyond Horizon said...

@Alka...Thanks! Yes, I want someone to! :)

@Eon...The pain I have lived with, The pain I will not forget, but I will never run away from it, to get the freedom! Yes, It does hurt, but won't call it a suffering...coz It has taught me about LIFE...about living life!
Thanks :)

@Valli...Oh! I never wanted anyone to feel sad...Smile please :)
Thanks!

@Blood Is Red...Hey! You too Cheer up girl, whenever I think about your post I read first, I always smile...Keep Smiling :)
& Thank you!

Beyond Horizon said...

@Beyond...Thank you so much for the words I have been searching for!

Solitude has always been my solace, you are right by saying, its a blessing in disguise...It has taught me to learn more about myself, self introspect and love. But as I said, sometimes I do want myself to be heard by the one who understands me, when I just don't want this solitude.

I will remember, Its no pain, its gift of time for sure! :)


@Sarah...'the only solace is within our own self', nicely said!
Sing the happy song alongwith too :)

P.S.I loved that you called me di, Thanks :)

@Rajesh...Thanks! :)

@4 those who care...Thanks, coz only these few words I have :)

Beyond Horizon said...

@Ritz...Thanks! for understanding the profoundness even though there are few words that I could express :)

@Alcina...I love to be alone, when I meet the 'Me'
Thanks!
You too Keep Smiling :)

@m7...Thank you for the warm hugs :)

Beyond Horizon said...

@Sourav...Yep! I did, and trying to!
Life is indeed beautiful :)
Thank you so much for your words always light up the path for the beautiful journey :)

@Deepika...Solitude helps me,so I love it and do find solace!
But yes sometimes it doesn't, as I said in this post.

Thanks to you too for calling me di :)

@Anshul..Letting go is difficult, and more is to avoid the angst,pain
Thanks a lot for saying "silence is the better way to communicate" :) It is!

@Fatima...Its ok dear :) You are right, Hope! The one I will never loose!

Swati Thampan said...

I loved the way you penned it...it's so personal and heartfelt

Deepika said...

Since you're elder.. Felt like calling you di.. :)

Ramesh Sood said...

YEARNING... INDEED ... THE NEED TO GET UNDERSTOOD IS THE GREATEST NEED..PARTICULARLY FOR THOSE WHO LIKE TO THINK ANEW, AFRESH... FOR VERY DIFFICULT FOR OTHERS AROUND TO ACCEPT.. BECUASE ACCEPTANCE THERE MEANS ACCEPTANCE OF YOUR BEING ON A DIFFERENT PLANE... HOW CAN THAT BE.. AND THEN..THIS PAGE HERE ..THIS SPACE HERE..HELP YOU MEET UNKNOWN SPIRITS, STRANGERS ..PERHAPS WHOSE HEARTS BEAT THE SAME BEATS.. AND YOU FIND GETTING UNDERSTOOD..YOU FIND PEOPLE
ACKNOWLEDING YOUR PRESENCE..WHAT A BOON..A REAL BLESSING... NEED GETS FULFILLED AND THEN A STAGE COMES WHEN IT DOESN'T EXIST BECAUSE IT DOESN'T MATTER..BUT THEN TO ARRIVE THERE ..SO DIFFICULT..
AND PAIN IS ESSENTIAL ELSE ONE WILL NEVER KNOW HAPPINESS..AND TRUST ME ITS PAIN THAT BRINGS US ALL TOGETHER..BECAUSE WE START WRITING TO SPILL PAIN.. AND BECOME FREE..WELL DON'T KNOW WHAT MOTIVATED ME TO PUT SO MANY WORDS HERE.. BUT THEN THE YEARNIGN YOU WROTE ABOUT PERHAPS TRIGGERED BECAUSE THAT'S WHAT IT IS ALL ABOUT.. GOD BLESS!!!!!

CHEERS! RAMESH

Raksha Bhat said...

There are some things which we crave for and then there are some things that we own.Most of the times we are scared of losing the latter.It is not LOVE that we fear,it is the the fear of losing,hurting,cheating,disappointing someone whom we love.Love is always wonderful:)

As well always like your lines touch my heart Poo,this one did too:)

magiceye said...

that is so beautifully delicate

Sourav said...

A person who is beautiful inside can appreciate the beauty outside and around! Touch your heart deep, and you'd be healed too :)

... Madhumathi ... said...

U Made the word "solitude" more beautiful vth ur poem :) Well xpressed!

Yea.. v ppl sum times come across solitude... it is nothing but teaching a lesson.. for our life.. vch is needed.. :) Hope u get more stronger n conscious abt such situations in ur future!

Take care. :) and u hav a great blog!
Cheers ^_^

Beyond Horizon said...

@Swati...Thanks! Hmm..It is! :)

@Deepika...Sweet of you :) but am not that elderly ;)

@Mr.Ramesh Sood...Your many words have helped a lot. THANK YOU SO MUCH!

Rightly said, this is THE space where I can pour all of my emotions...and it really feels nice that all these unknown spirits, strangers like you understands me, means a lot!

Thanks once again :)

Beyond Horizon said...

@R...Its indeed the fear of losing and not Love!
Thanks a lot :)

@magiceye...delicate, True! Thanks :)

@Sourav
You kind words have made me loss for words...
Thanks again and being along-with always! :)

@...Madhumati...Sweet name!
Thanks and Welcome :)

Sayak said...

Let the pain stay,
Let it keep you awake.
Because it rewinds,
Because it reminds.

RM said...

I am really sorry to be here so late.... I don't know what has transpired and I won't ask... but if you think it can't be you then
IT IS NOT YOU.... don't smile till the time it is for your own sake... you can never loose being You... you can only forget at times... or diverted for some time... but soon you'll remember.. You.... the "You " that was before you loved the one... nothing has changed... the very fact that you can differentiate implies that the real you is there as the standard... u r just not able to see it... just wash your eyes of the hurt... look beyond the pain... you'll see the full moon (Poonam)shining bright... :) :)

Take care... will wait for the smiling, crusader against pain, hurt, melancholy, bitterness; fighting for the baby girl, the infant, for every thing that is the synonym of life

RM said...

And hey you overwhelmed me with the love you RM :)
That was a real surprise that made my day.

God bless you gal :)

Keep smiling

Deepika said...

lol.. who called elder alike 40-50 :P
2 years elder is elder too sweetie pie :)

Beyond Horizon said...

@Sayak...the pain hurts, reminds, and will always stay but I need to soothe it too, and I have known its only me who can! :)

@RM...Its absolutely fine dear, and you always have the most soothing words that makes me Smile :)

and in fact You have overwhelmed me by saying those most lovely words ever said to me and they are gonna be close to me forever...

You too Keep Smiling :)

@Deepika... ;) Thanks!

gohost said...

If touching and beautiful lines about love. above all the lines are miracle. My inspire line for this poem : Once My Solace,The One I Loved, Now I am Scared of!

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