Embracing Solitude

 In solitude she dances, graceful and free,

A girl who's alone, yet blissful is she.

With radiant smile, her spirit takes flight,

Embracing the beauty of her own inner light.

Her laughter echoes through the silent air,

No company needed, she's content to bear.

With every step she takes, a world unfolds,

In her solitary realm, she finds treasures untold.

Her heart, a sanctuary of tranquil peace,

She weaves her dreams like a tapestry release.

For in her solitude, she's never truly alone,

For nature's symphony and her soul are as one.

In her own company, she discovers her worth,

Embracing solitude's gifts, she finds rebirth.

Alone, yet happy, she dances with delight,

A girl who has found solace in her own beautiful sight.

Echoes of absence

 

Echoes of absence, 

sorrow's cruel art, 

aching voids remind me of your depart.

Solitude's Embrace

In solitude's embrace,

I find my inner peace,

where my soul dances freely,

and worries find release. 

 

Life Update | Three Makes Baby

WOW! It's been 3 years since I have updated this space. I used to hop on over here to read a few of my favorite bloggers but never left my footprints via comments. Without further ado, let me share my life update. 

The title of this post might seem out of the line or odd to you but the one who has or is living with the pangs of infertility would understand it. 

I am not going to show you the harsh face of infertility and how it makes or breaks relationships in this post but share how the years of struggle led to a baby. Yes! I am a mother of a toddler who is now 2. My baby made me a mom on 3 March 2020. 

The title is inspired by the book Three Makes Baby: How to Parent Your Donor-Conceived Child by Jana Rupnow. I haven't read it yet but the title is intriguing for the ones who have become parents via donor eggs/sperms and who are unfamiliar with Donor conception.

I was diagnosed with Premature Menopause which I have explained in this post -  Life With Premature Menopause on my other blog - Aai & Baby V dedicated to infertility, motherhood, and parenting.

I had shared a post of my journal entry  - Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish back in 2017 in which I had mentioned about infertility is affecting my mental health. 

I have Premature Menopause or Primary Ovarian Insufficiency which meant I had only a few eggs which may or may not be healthy. So my doctors' advice was to use donor eggs. It took me a whole year to accept this reality and when it was absorbed thoroughly I was ready - mentally, emotionally and physically which led to the path of IVF. 

Using donor eggs meant my baby does not share my genes but does that mean I am not his mother? Absolutely no! Even science defines me as his biological mother.  You can read all about my Donor Egg - IVF in this post in which I have opened up about my fear, anxiety. I can talk a lot on this topic but I want to keep this short and subtle. 

Ending this post by sharing photos ( I love taking photos, they are perfect keepsakes) and with the hope to come here often and sticking to what Anne Frank says on writing which is my blog description. 

Forget Me Not

I have been MIA (again! But this happened after a long time). I have lost the one wherein I had found my muse. Not literally, I can’t put it in words over here.

I had pledged for ‘perseverance’ as the word of the year. I am holding on to it except for the writing part.  My health is pulling me down despite training my mental strength. Do you know the feeling of landing from one physical ailment to others? It is draining my energy even Glucon-D can’t restore it (pun intended).

Well, even if I have lost my muse, I can still answer the following questions which I found Here. A simple way of keeping me alive here.

Let me begin… (However, there can’t be only one answer for a few questions by me)

1. My favorite blog is

SOLILOQUIES ~ Beyond Few Words

Heart Speak

The Silhouette...

The Mind's Endless Mirror

!!! Flavors !!!

These are the ones I have known since the era I began blogging. Few have stopped writing and I’m waiting for them to start again.

2. I’m inspired by

Oprah Winfrey

Priyanka Chopra

Will Smith

Jay Shetty

Sunny Leone

3. My favorite social network is WhatsApp (only present here to be in touch with 5 friends)

4. My all-time favorite book is

Harry Potter series

P.S. I Love You (I have reread it thrice and it never loses the charm and the ability to make me cry)

5. If I could be anywhere right now, it would be Paris.

WOULD YOU RATHER

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6. Would you rather have 5 close friends or 10,000 facebook friends?

5 close friends, even 1 is enough who “listens” to me without judging.

7. Would you rather have $100,000 in real money or $1,000,000 in Amazon gift cards?

Amazon gift cards.

8. Would you rather be famous or the best friend of someone famous?

Neither.

9. Would you rather have free Starbucks for a year or free iTunes music forever?

Free iTunes music forever.

10. Would you rather have 100K Facebook followers or 100K Twitter followers?

Neither. I can never be consistent on social media.

11. Would you rather hike a mountain or lay on the beach?

Lay on the beach.

12. Would you rather have to sit all day or stand all day?

Neither. Too painful to do either for the whole day.

13. Would you rather have a personal chef or a maid?

Personal chef!

WHAT’S YOUR FAVORITE

 

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14. What is your all-time favorite book?

P.S. I Love You

15. What is your favorite travel destination?

Kashmir

16. What is your favorite time of the year?

Autumn & Spring. Aren’t they similar to life? Shedding of leaves & Rejuvenation of life. 

17. What is your favorite holiday?

Diwali. And also when there is a holiday either on Friday or Monday for a long relaxing weekend.

18. Who is your favorite Disney character and why?

Winne The Pooh – Wise and A Best Friend

19. What is your favorite TV show?

• The Good Wife
• Bones
• Shadowhunters – The Mortal Instruments (Though a fantasy, each character is crafted with every human personality)
• Vampire Diaries (No particular reason for liking it, it was my guilty pleasure once)

20. What is your favorite flavor of ice cream?

Kesar Pista

21. What is your favorite knock-knock joke?

I don’t like them.

WHAT IS…

 

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22. What is your biggest fear?

Fear of stepping out of comfort zone.

23. What is your ideal vacation in one sentence?

Spending time and “living” life with the one who never judges me for my decisions. (Not exactly an answer for ‘ideal vacation’ but I would love to have this)

24. What was the last thing you got really excited about?

I was eagerly waiting for books that I had ordered from Bibliofreak. You should try too.

25. What is your superpower?

Too kind and Patience

26. What famous person in history would you love to meet?

Steve Jobs

27. What is the best compliment you have ever received?

“Acche lag rahe ho aaj”

28. What is your ideal date night?

I don’t believe in the concept of ideal date night.

ONLY ONE THING

 

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29. If you could only have one app on your phone, what would it be?

Gmail

30. If you could only listen to one genre of music, what would it be?

Country

31. What one thing do you hope to accomplish this week?

Finish reading the book – The Negotiator by Fredrick Forsyth (It is a book where I can answer like – Woah! Too many characters, too huge, too intense (reading since 3 weeks) but intriguing, can’t put it down.)

32. What is one food you could not live without?

Nothing. If any food that worsens my health I can give it up.

 

 THIS OR THAT

 

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33. Are you a cat or dog lover?

Dog lover.

34. Tea or coffee?

Tea

35. A quiet night at home with a book or out on the town with friends?

Depends on the phase of life.

36. Snapchat or Instagram stories?

Instagram stories

37. City or country?

City

38. Mountains or beach?

Mountains

39. Are you a saver or a spender?

Saver

40. Margaritas frozen or on the rocks?

Neither.

41. Wine or beer?

Wine

42. Pepsi or Coke?

Neither.

43. Are you a night owl or an early bird?

 Night owl (For lifetime!)

44. Do you like country or rock n’ roll?

Country

45. Salty snack or sweet treat?

Sweet treat

IF YOU COULD

 

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46. If you could run away for a day and do anything you want, what would you do?

I will travel.

47. If you could retire tomorrow, what would you do?

Travel around the world (Hopefully, I have money for it!)

48. If you could star in any TV show throughout history, what would it be and who would you be?

The Oprah Winfrey Show. Who would you be – Myself, the way I am!

49. If you could only eat one thing for the rest of your life, what would it be?

I could never do that. I am a foodie.

50. If you could travel anywhere for free, where would it be and why?

Europe. Why? Blame it on the shows I keep watching on Discovery, Fox Life, the books I read which mention Europe and the romantic movies shot there.

51. If you could interview one person in your field, who would it be?

Dr. Sanglikar. (He was our teacher for Practice of Medicine.)

WHAT IF

 

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52. If you won the lottery, how would you spend the money?

Take my parents on an international trip.

53. What five things could you not live without?

Books

Mobile

Handbags

Kohl

Candles

(The question asked about things. But I can live without the things mentioned here)

54. If someone gave you $1,000, how would you spend it?

There are too many questions about money. I will skip this one.

55. If you were in a band, what instrument would you play?

Guitar

56. If you were a superhero, who would you be?

Batman

GRATITUDE

 

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57. What are you most thankful for today?

Living this Day!

58. What is the best thing to do in your hometown?

Many places to spend time with friends.

59. Who do you admire the most, and why?

My Parents. You already know the answer to the why.

NOSTALGIA

 

60. What was the BEST vacation you ever took?

Kashmir in the year 2017

61. What’s the one movie you could watch over and over again?

Me Before You

Before We Go

Dear Zindagi

Yeh Jawaani Hai Deewani

Tamasha

62. When you were a kid, what did you want to be when you grew up?

Pilot

63. What was your favorite cartoon as a kid?

Potli Baba Ki (any 90s kid reading?) Ducktales, Aladdin, Little Mermaid.

64. What was your first job?

Consulting physician

65. What was your first car?

I do not own a car (as of now).  

Teardrop

Image Source

A teardrop fell on my cheek

(after a long time)

When I read you

As it traversed further down

Our conversations came alive

(Historic for us)

Why? This "why" pesters me

We shouldn't have met?!

(I never would've felt "love", then)

The teardrop fell down

Unanswered my question

Leaving me forlorn

Longing for you, forever

©️ Beyond Horizon

Question?!

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Love.

Can it ever be impure?!

©️Beyond Horizon