I will never start this letter with 'Dear'. You people who I hate most do not deserve the 'dear'. You caused me the
emotional pain which I had begin to believe there wasn't a cure for. I never believed
there would be people like you in my life.
My life was doomed. You have no idea how much pain you people had
caused. I had begun to wish each day there shouldn’t be a tomorrow for me. Days
were painful and horrendous near you. The thoughts of ‘death’ and ‘to escape’ overpowered
my brain. I had wished to die, to give up everything because I couldn’t pick
myself up.
Wait there is more! I had failed myself in life. I had wanted to
jump in front of the train or die in any circumstances within few seconds - the
only escape from that pain.
I had to suffer and bear the ‘most painful’ disease condition
recorded in medical history. I lived through that pain with gritted teeth and
swallowing my own voice of hurt. But neither of you understood the pain.
I had endured the pain for what? For standing up for myself and
being me! You tried to deter my courage by weakening me. You wanted me to be a
puppet with the strings in your hands. But you know what- the pain made me
stronger. I was in darkness all the way to realize - You never had the strings
of my life!
Everything happens for a reason and after meeting you I have realized
never, ever be dependent on anyone for your happiness. If I can’t pick myself
up from the rut, no one will.
I took a wrong turn and met you. It wasn't the road less traveled but it is the road where I turned to be 'me' as I am today.
I will never wish bad for you because Karma is a b***h
and it will get you.
From the one who will never be yours.
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