CARDIGRAZIOSO

I'll Be There For You

2012-02-02T19:00:00.000+05:30

I am holding the pen to write a lovely melody for you Manshaa, on your most special day. This post, the blog look is dedicated to you.

By the time you read this, Day Feb 3 has already waved 'hello' in some parts of the world. So Many Many Many Happy Returns of the Day. I wanted to be the first one to wish you. :D

Remembering the school days that we spent together is like spinning elegantly around those lovely memories. Memories that we share are beautiful to cherish for lifetime. There are only few moments in my life that I would rewind. This music of the past that plays never fails to make me smile.

I was a person who did not believed in friendship. But after you left I realized how a friend can change you. It's said a soul-mate completes you. For me, life without a friend is incomplete too.

You had written this to me, "I just wish to ask you something today: Please be my friend for life..." Yes! I will be your friend for life...Is there any doubt? :P

Almost 7 months before, we reconnected again through our love for writing. I can say without any hesitance; these were the best times I have had sharing the most momentous events of my life with you. Never ever I had opened my heart to anyone with the fear of being misunderstood and look down to.

I still remember our first long chat. Today I re-read them again making me smile and blushing. We know the reasons for the blushing. Others Please don't get any weird thoughts :P

And honestly no tears! You know the tear glands are too stubborn to budge. Except for your post, Nothing else matters. As many times I read it, it warms my eyes. How handsomely you carve out your emotions! They feel so alive.

I want to make a confession.I did envy the way you wrote it. The feeling of being known, to be wanted, to be craved for. It renders me speechless.But at the same time, it pains somewhere inside knowing the truth behind them.

We very often take a form of cocoon. I try to break the silence sometimes by starting to write a mail to you. I just stare at the screen and it gets saved as a draft. It never gets forwarded cause I respect the silence.

Your wish "God, Send me My Valentine" will come true. The one you are praying to cannot make you wait any longer, not anymore. I will pray for you, two pairs of praying hands are stronger than one ;)

Smile so that I can too. And you know na someone had said that my smile is contagious :P :D

The best and most special song for you...Happy Birthday :) :) :)

Chronicle

2012-01-09T23:50:00.000+05:30

In the wake of twilight, When memories stir you

Unwrap the book of a soul, A sketch have been carved

Unravel a chronicle of its painter, Hidden in the canvas

Moments of lonely summer days, tumultuous rainy evenings

Craving for someone to hold, in freezing winter nights

Etched in the canvas, She painted it with words

Distance would be crossed, separated by life and death

Caress the words, You will feel her pounding heart

Smell the pages, Breathe in her feelings

Lifetime she has woven, It’s her mirror image

You will understand her, Love her more than you did

She sketched it for you, It had always been only for you

If smile brightens your eyes, It’s her smile for you

If it saddens, remember it would be only her sadness

Tears smudged in words, The ones she couldn’t hold

Her soul thrives in her memorabilia, Kept hidden in herlifetime

If you see her spirit between the lines, She will rest inpeace

Wrap the chronicle as the twilight sleeps, Rest embracingher memories

	Nathan Castellanos - Living in The Twilight .mp3

	Found at bee mp3 search engine

Reminiscence

2012-01-05T16:07:00.000+05:30

Scar

Remembrance

Of broken promise

Promise?

No! It wasn’t

It was keeping a word

Word

She believed

Blind faith?

~~Or her selfishness?~~

Remember ‘No one else?’

She did hide

But never lied

Breeze across the seven seas

Slashed her within

Hour glass shattered

Grains of sand

Spilled around

Their voices

Deafening

It’s End of

Months long wait

Walked away

As if never came her way

Mending her heart?

She did not give

wasn’t fallen for

But she was on the verge of

Half drawn heart

On her breathe

Stay Incomplete

She is no longer waiting

She will not!

I won’t let her to!

Scar

She won’t hide

Reminiscence ~~Screaming~~ of

Don’t Trust Easily!

P.S. This time I haven't attached any song. Why not you suggest one..Let me know your favorite :)

Sunshine Of Life

2012-01-01T21:55:00.000+05:30

Where were you? Don’t you realize I can’t live without you?

Do you know how much I long for to see you? To be with you,To hold you.

Do you remember the last time you visited me? Here you are,when least expected.

Look at the grin of yours! You like to see me distress,don’t you?

As I sit on this pier every evening, my toes caressing thewaves, I can f eel you.

I see you in a child’s laughter. I can see you when firstdrop of rain kisses the earth

Your reflection in my eyes brightens them & my day.

I smile thinking about you. Don’t I look beautiful when Ismile?

Your touch on my lips is like dew on petals of a rose.

The shrill cold touch of loneliness never fails to freezeme. Your embrace is what I need.

How long you are going to be with me this time?

You are not going to talk with me as always, right..

I know you are not here to live with me forever.

You continue to smile and stay with me (short live may be)even if I am complaining.

You will let me cry and make me say good night with a peckon my cheek. I hope to see you when I open my eyes in morning.

If you are not around, I won’t fret. I won’t be waiting foryou to come to me. I will keep my words.

I will walk to pursue ‘you’, ‘Happiness’ and once you leave me again, I will keep walking untilthe last breathe I shall take in your arms.

Tip-toe you come

Masking my eyes

I rise on toes

You swirl me

Like a prince

Dancing on beats

Of my laughter

Flying across sky

Kissing the moon

Winking at stars

Playing, lazying on clouds

Swinging in rain

Feeling warmth

In melting snow

Smiling at sunshine

Adieu to gloom

and

Living like a Rainbow

'Sunshine' Song to begin theyear with…'Hope' 'Optimism'

P.S. I am not advising or promoting aerated drinks ;)

To You, My Love

2011-12-25T15:11:00.000+05:30

"I Love You"

I love you as a lover who treasures a rose in his diary. Rose, whose fragrance goes away, but continues to emit sweet aura of memories.

You listen to my ramblings, my muse, my rants, my cribbing in utmost serenity.

Within you resides my confessions, some unconfessed emotions & also the darker side of me.

There are few secrets, I haven't told you about. I have kept those in between my heart beats, which cannot be heard. Only felt by me. They are alive till I am. They will perish when my heart stops beating.

You are Me, My reflection, though that will be oblivious one day. But you will live on.

Cause You have my soul, who never dies even if I turn to ashes.

I have never written a letter to the one who paints my life's canvas with colors. Among which I think his favorite is black sometimes ;)

He knew I needed someone like you. You do not wipe my tears, but let them fall & eases the burden on my heart.

Happy Birthday to you, My dearest Blog.

You made me fall in love with words. Words that connects hearts,and the ones who is familiar with its subtlety.

You made me realize, the first step to love someone is to love thyself.

You live within me. You shall live forever without me, embracing my essence.

Forever Yours,

Beyond Horizon

I am never lonely here. I have wonderful friends like you. Yes! Yes, the one who is reading :)

This blog reconnected with my best buddy...Manshaa. Its going to be 10 yrs we haven't met. But here we are face to face, to each others 'Other Side'. What best can get than this! I am gonna celebrate my blogs birthday this year with you. Hope to meet you soon, real soon :D

I talk with some of you almost each day.

Eon Heath :P

I just want to say Thank You, will not do much of chapar chapar. Keep Giggling & I am missing those giggles :)

Yeah! Yeah...My Sweet little dumb head friend..How can I forget you TOSM

We are in the same time zone now yet we cannot meet :(

But I loved hearing your sweetest voice. I wish..Hum jaldh milenge. Miss ya <3

Beyond, Ritz, Vishal, Blasphemous Aesthete, RM, Raksha...R, Alcina (Mystery Gal ;), Always Happy (Missing You), Alka Gurha, Rohini

Thank you so much for always being here with me from beginning. I am sure our bond of friendship will keep strengthening by each coming day :D

My friends circle in blog-o-sphere is getting bigger & stronger by meeting you guys :

Swati Thampan My Silent Friend:) , Lilangel Sweet & Brilliant subtle poems Deepika (You create magic with your words) Sarah (soon to be fellow colleague ;), Gargi G2..Love short form of your name :) Fatima (Bubbly chatter box) Vaisakhi(Most innovative) Angel (Lots of Love & Friendship :D
Valli (Sparkly Angel) Moonlight (You are moonlight & I am Moon ;) Simran (Little gal), Tanvi (Cutest gonna be Doc )
Menachery (Tinu <3 You), :-Dee (Smiling gal) Susie (Ahh! Your poems), Janet (Our small conversation & thoughts)
Princesa Fiona <3 your sonnet ;) Cяystal many sides of you :) Pee Vee(Chocolate obsessed :D

Prateek (unwisely wise :P) Kunal (Yours Beautiful imagination ;) SUB (Posts I wouldnt have thought about) Pandian (Few words)

I am a silent reader to few blogs, but won't mention here. Cause I won't remain a silent one ;)

Merry Christmas & Happy New year. Best Wishes & Lots Of Love To You All

Please! Please! Please! Do not leave me alone or Forget Me

P.S. I never say 'No' to presents :P

Wrapping this year with the heart warming melody which is close to my heart
"Jiyo, Khush raho, Muskuraon...Kya Pata Kal Ho Na Ho"

Gift Me Some Smiles &

	sonu nigam - KAL HO NAA HO .mp3

	Found at bee mp3 search engine

To my dear non hindi listeners :)

	Lady Antebellum - Hello World .mp3

	Found at bee mp3 search engine

Dark Secret Behind Its Eyes

2011-12-22T09:38:00.000+05:30

I am standing at the crossroad we met. I had promisedmyself, I will never turn back.

What happened?

Why do I see myselfon the same path?

Did I never moved on?

Was I walking in circles?

Or unwillingly I have trodden?

Piercing gaze of those eyes

Preying my mind

Who is it in disguise?

My feet nailed to ground

Swiftly it slided

Black robe confined around

Smirk in a ear

Shiver down my spine

Husky voice, I could hear

Handsome rage dancing in its eyes

Singing, "You have been possessed"

Scarred fingers muffled my cries

Frigid breathe on neck

Sniffed my skin

Resurrected from past to break

To break my will

To break my conscience
It is here to kill

Its poisonous pang corroding the skin. Flaring as it swims into my veins, charring my insides.

It was drinking my exuberant spirit. I stood as if deceased.

Shrieking laugh echoed the room. Snapped me back from lifeless trance.

It was drooling with jealousy, the look so greedy.

I had been confronted by my own 'Guilt'.

I know

You are life for someone else

But

This Guilt

Smudges my present

Flaming the resentment

It captivates me

When I think

'Dreaming of You'

When I question

'Why can't I be with you?'

When I say

'I Miss You'

Do not skip from listening the song. Close your eyes & listen or rather feel.

	Adele - I Can't Make You Love Me .mp3

	Found at bee mp3 search engine

Sojourn

2011-12-03T19:19:00.000+05:30

Have you ever felt solace among the strangers? No questioning eyes. No fear of judging you.

My journey in a train, best moments of solace of everyday life begins with music filling my ears. Tunes soothing my soul,flowing in my mind and rejuvenating it as rain drops falls on thirsty barren earth.

My toes are tapping on the beats of 'Hiding My Heart' by Adele. Have you seen her? An inspirational personality. She had said once"People are starting to go on about my weight but I'm not going to change my size because they don't like the way I look."

What is beauty? Does "Beauty lies in the beholders eyes" sounds rusted as it's quoted over and over again? Practicality haven't touched it yet.

"Everything has its beauty, but not everyone sees it"

I close my eyes, pondering over many such questions. The wind ruffles my hair lovingly and blowing away the obscurity. This is beauty! I can feel it.

I hear the wind saying notoriously, "Hey beautiful! Where is your smile?" ;)

Dimpled smile twinkling in my eyes envisioning the most awesome scene of the travel : The creek.

Dancing tidal waves, wind touching the surface creating ripples, clouds showering its love, droplets caressing my severed skin and dripping away the pain within..

Warmth of the sun, reflection of the moon, romanticizing night as if whispering to me, "We love you" and the James Morrison's track "I won't let you go"starts to play in my mobile.

Alluring, elegance of the horizon always make me wonder. The union of sky and earth is an illusion.

Is destiny like the horizon? Do you believe in it? If certain thing is out of the bound of my imagination, I depend on it. I am not talking where prime requirement is of hard work.

I had a conversation with a friend on this, who had said,"if destiny works...good enough...if no..then you are on your own..in getting what you want...holding onto destiny won't bring you closer to destiny...it just means..that for few things..you are counting your destiny/fate to help you....but even for that...we have to make our moves ourselves"

The reply made me rethink. What's your say on it?

Fear of unknown

What's this sinking feeling about?

Colors all around

Why does black feels more friendly?

Sounds of laughter

Why the waves of anguish?

Emotions are not camouflaged

Then

Why do happiness seems to be a mirage?

My last stop is arriving, I bookmark the page of 'Pride & Prejudice'. How will you distinguish pride from vanity? As they say, "A very thin line" :D

The train halted. I won't call it as "My destination", cause I will be on this journey again...in My Mumbai's lifeline <3

As I step down, I keep humming,
"I believe in the sun, even though it slowly rises
I believe in you, even without realizing
I believe in the rain, though i see no cloud in the sky
I believe in truth, even though everybody lie"

	Agnee, Parikrama and Shilpa Ra - I Believe .mp3

	Found at bee mp3 search engine

Heal My Wounds

2011-11-18T22:36:00.000+05:30

Yearning died
Voice muffled

Talks, annoys
Closeness, vexes

Words, those words
Torments

Silence, stings
Tear me apart
Wait!
I can't feel it

I hate that reflection
Truth or Lie?
Happy or Compromise?

Eyes deceives
My own reflection
Betrays me

Those tears, unyielding I see
Stubborn, adamant
Soulless,Heartless
I remain

Weary of this mask
Lost, I am

Screaming silence
Shatters the mirror
Melting eyes, haunts

Sardonic, My smile
Cynical, My laugh

Cold as a stone

I would rather be hurt
than feel no pain
I would rather be hurt
than feel no pain

P.S. I know after exactly 2 months this Beyond Horizon has arisen. The storm had taken its toll inside, so I had to calm it, and whats better place than this, My Abode...My Solace :D

As for the post, read it with the thought as someone says "momentary emotions" ;)

I hope to arise again soon.

Immerse yourself in this lovely tune by Poets Of The Fall- Beautiful Ones

Poets of the Fall - The beautiful ones download

found at bombmp3 search engine

The Last Song

2011-09-16T21:34:00.000+05:30

Amiable musical breeze,

Tranquil moon behind the clouds,

What a transcendental sight!

Million stars befriending me,

As I am writing this silent symphony,

In magnificent yet so lonely night

Shuffling through pages of past,

Replaying somber tunes,

Tearing one by one,

Burning torn pieces,

Blowing away the ashes

I know,

It can’t reincarnate,

but

It won’t gnaw me within,

It won’t tear me apart,

anymore

How I wish,

Those emotions shouldn’t have born!

Once ecstatic, later repressing,

I killed them,

Living with no serenity,

How I wish,

Those emotions shouldn’t have born!

Mind numbing pain, escalating,

My feelings as autumn leaves,

Shedding from heart,

Crumbling, crushing on path

Drizzling raindrops,

Hurts my dried eyes,

Immersing neither hides the pain,

Nor abates it,

I continue to wander,

Still breathing

Future obscure,

Eagerness died away,

For the wait,

That tomorrow embraces,

and

For vision of what lies Beyond Horizon

Warmth burns me,

Cover me with blanket of cold & peace

I wish for,

Calm sleep than shattered dreams

Tonight,

I close my eyes,

While the horizon is dark,

Rhythm now evanescent,

and

I have ended The Last Song

This beautiful song Wait For Sleep, shared by my Best Buddy Manshaa :)

"In with the ashes
Or up with the smoke from the fire
With wings up in heaven
Or here, lying in bed
Palm of her hand to my head
Now and forever curled in my heart
And the heart of the world"

	Dream Theater - Wait for Sleep .mp3

	Found at bee mp3 search engine

There's Only One Story, The Story Of Their Life

2011-09-01T22:59:00.000+05:30

“Stories are as unique as the people who tell them, & the best stories are those in which the ending is a surprise.” By Nicholas Sparks, Book: The Choice

Here I come with the final part of the love series, after long time. An end which is a beginning in itself.

Part 1: CHANGE?!

Part 2: If Only You Knew...

Part 3: I Feel Close To YOU Tonight...

My heartfelt gratitude to my friend Eon Heath, who blogs at The Silhouette & Kuch Madhosh Pal, helped me in completing the final part of this series. Its through his writings,I have learned to read between the lines. As he says,” Hiding behind this veil, are emotions untold...”

Thanks a lot Eon :)

The first half of the post is written by Eon Heath, and the song selection of 'Lonely Nights' is by him.

Their Story...

He was still living with those few moments they spent together. How he wished he could tell her then that he didn’t have to use his imagination to sing, that song had always been for her.

The days passed. Each still holding tightly to the words whispered in silence. Those words unsaid were understood. Yet never reciprocated nor acknowledged, for fear of tainting the glass window that let them see each other.

“Why do people fall in love?”

Now-a-days it was hard not to think, hard to keep it buried in.

He just continued to gaze at her, with that smile playing on his lips. The smile that she despised in his presence and dream about, in his absence.

“Answer me please. Why do we fall in love?”

“We don’t decide whether to love someone or not, it just happens. And that is the beauty of it.”

“Even if it’s not meant to be?”

She knew it better than to ask. But still she needed to hear his words, not to be strong herself, but to give him the strength to carry on.

“What does it mean when we say that ‘Its not meant to be?’ We don’t love someone with a clause of that love to be requited, nor do we plan the destiny of the love beforehand and then plunge into it. Love is not something that has an end. Love stays. And it needs not two, but just one heart to nurture it.”

Those words reaffirmed her belief that she will always be loved.

Love is bliss,

Like an untimely rain,

I wanna feel it in you...

The summer rain,

I wanna feel it with you...

You may not walk with me,

I know..

But I carry you everywhere

Deep in my heart,

I carry you home...

He yet again resigned to the dark night. Another day was added to the years that had passed. And still the ritual continued. Looking for that face in the starlit sky. Before, he never understood what about the night sky was so enchanting to the inamoratas; now he was one of them...The night had become his companion, to live the part of her which was his forever. Her memories.

For i know,

Under the silent sky

When the stars shine down

You are mine

And you’ll be alive

In me...

	Scorpions - Lonely Nights .mp3

	Found at bee mp3 search engine

The dazzling waves did not twinkle in her eyes in this evening.

Days passed by, what resided within her are the moments, the moments they had lived together gazing at the elegant twilight.

But the iridescent colors across the horizon are not consolatory and tranquilizing anymore, since he is not besides her.

She missed his tenderly look, his enthralling voice. She missed him as if her life has ceased.

The societal shackles uprooted the tree, their love.

Tonight and every night, she holds dear his memories. But being forlorn, she poured her feelings once again.

Ferocious storm,

Took away your love

Dried leaves,

Dying memories

Crushed flowers,

Essence of hatred

Raining hailstones,

Cut through my skin,

Bleeding,

Still standing,

Coz

I can’t feel the pain

Crimson River,

No ocean to meet,

No shore to end

Waited for dawn,

It never rose,

I Lost Hope

Someone stole the Star,

I can’t feel You

Life like starless sky,

We couldn’t even say goodbye

Tunes forgotten,

Music died.

She is hurt. She is broken, but she has no reason to be angry with anyone, as Love can never hurt a soul. It can never be stolen.

Because of You,

I knew What Love is

Love is abiding,

Love is enduring…

What keeps us alive is Love,

What keeps our souls entwined is Love…

Stars began to shine down in the enchanting sky, singing the forgotten melody.

She could hear the perennial music of love once again.

The brightest star winked at her and she smiled. Finally saying “Good Bye To YOU”

Michelle Branch - michelle branch Goodbye to you download

found at bombmp3 search engine

© Beyond Horizon

Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous. Love is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It does not take offense and is not resentful. Love takes no pleasure in other people's sins, but delights in the truth. It is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope, and to endure whatever comes. (A Walk To Remember)

The Reason...

2011-08-14T22:07:00.000+05:30

Breach deep within,

Blazing my mind,

Sinking in the drought,

Outdistanced from core of life

Your words, foreshadowed

Allaying alienation,

Smothering pain,

Cascading barren mind,

Rejuvenated bliss

Veil of ignorance,

I wear,
I know,
Its not fair

Though

Not truly hiding,

Just taken a step back,

Turn around,
You will see me standing

How I wish to say Sorry to you!

A sole tie,

Where pain flows,

It hurts to hurt you

Smile,

I had lost somewhere,

The Reason I Smiled again,

The Reason for the serenity,

The Reason is You

My Friend

"I've found a reason to show, A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do, And the reason is you" The Reason By Hoobastank

	Hoobastank - The Reason .mp3

	Found at bee mp3 search engine

Zestful in Desolation...

2011-07-26T22:43:00.000+05:30

Forsaken in crowd,

Wandering lonely as a cloud.

Emotions being thrust,

But

The cloud will never burst.

Emptiness, have no fear,

Am alive, Its dear.

Engulfs my whine,

Eyes, have no brine.

Darkness, my solace,

Silence, I embrace.

Midst of deserted,

It still can be quoted,

"Life is Beautiful"

It indeed is Beautiful...

Isn't it?

Image courtesy

I'll Be Waiting...

2011-07-12T21:36:00.000+05:30

Bright blue sky turned gray,

Refreshing air came my way...

Far across the seas,

It brought me a message...

As the grass caressed by the dews,

I saw a pleasant visage...

Thunderous clouds,

Will there be

Rendezvous of two worlds?

Breathe on the glass,

I drew half heart...

As the sand flows in hourglass,

Waiting for the heart that's apart...

The wait, its long...

Is it painful?

Yes!

But

Its graceful...

Downpour swept away the pain,

Enliven, I remain...

Wait now ephemeral,

Clasped emotions, I did let go...

Vows till eternal,

Envision a future, like a rainbow...

I'll be Waiting for the Heart,
Who will complete My Heart...

You must have come to know that am obsessed with music, so here again am sharing this lovely song, expressing An Abide...Right Here Waiting :)

	Richard Marx - Right Here Waiting .mp3

	Found at bee mp3 search engine

Something inside...

2011-07-01T21:54:00.000+05:30

Fire doesn't warm me,

Water doesn't soothes me...

My mind still as a calm ocean,

No ripples of waves,

No tide to soar...

Somethings broken,

Was it ever one?

Past, a kaleidoscope,

Happy, alive,

Like those brightening colors...

Today, a white canvas,

Waiting for the one to paint it,

With Love & Care...

As red of a rose,

Green of trees,

Blue of the sky,

Black of the night,

Making it lively and bright...

Pain never flowed from eyes,

Deep in my heart,

I poured it through my words...

My words were always for you,

Now,

Its hard to find You in them...

Have the pain numbed me?

Have I became resistant to it?

I had no fear of losing You,

I knew You were never mine...

Then,

Why did the distance hurt?

Why was missing you painful?

Were the feelings all delusions?

Did I ever Loved You?

Something inside,
saying,

You are not the one

who will walk beside,

You are not the one in my heart,

who will reside...

I wrote this after reading the post First Love... It has the elegance and everything about first love,but these were the only words I could pen down.

"No matter how much she came to love him, if she did, she would have to let him go. It was the only way to love him. Loving him meant never holding him, as well as letting him go, and she knew that to the roots of her soul. People never 'have' each other. "....from the book 'The Miracle' by Danielle Steel.

My friend had shared this beautiful song, Something inside. I would love to share it with you all too :)

	August Rush - Elgar / Something Inside .mp3

	Found at bee mp3 search engine

Life is like a Melody...

2011-06-24T22:07:00.000+05:30

The one who is reading, you have a Beautiful Smile...and few Einsteins out there, this holds true for you too :P

I want you to Keep Smiling... :)

This one is for my two notorious but the most wonderful, amazing (all the adjectives would be less for them) friends in my life...You are the Best Gift given to me by this Life...

For you, V and H...

You have started a journey,

Journey called ‘Life’…

The road not always smooth,

Remember, you crawled

Before you walked…

There is neither a Stop sign,

Nor you have to stop…

You can rest for a while,

As you have to walk many a mile…

You may walk through the desert,

You think it’s barren,

Listen to the sound it carries,

Tells about many stories…

Your footprints won’t stay on sand,

The storm wipes them,

You need not worry,

Your presence will be felt,

In the heart you stay…

You are not a loner,

Somewhere across a path,

You will meet the one,

Who will walk beside,

In your heart will reside…

When the road ends at two turns,

You have to choose one,

The one walking besides you

leaves forever…

I am not asking to forget the past,

Cherish it, it has your best memories…

But I want you to let go,

Let go of the past…

You can’t turn,

And trace your path back,

You have to move on…

Because, again,

At the crossroads,

Someone might be waiting for you…

What if?!

They are a present,

by the one from your past,

for you,

in this Present…

While writing today, tears welled up in my eyes.I don't want anyone to wipe these, coz I was waiting since long for them to flow...

How can I smile? when I know far away you are alone.

You are indecisive and feel trapped at the moment. You are lost in darkness of your shadowy dreams and thoughts.

I know you can loosen the chains and be free from the trapped feeling.

Darkness is within you, and even the light. The Light will clear the obscure thoughts.

Sometimes, Life makes us feel as if we are in a cocoon, where only darkness prevails. It takes some time, to grow and evade the darkness.

The wait gives birth to a beautiful butterfly, which flies and nothing can bind it, then.

Life is like a melody, it depends on us how beautiful we make it sound...

I wish I could be with you, but my words will reduce the distance.

I am penning down the words, one of you said to me...

“Memories are the best thing any person can give you…

Its like giving an essence of their being…

No one can be with us forever…no one…

Its memories that stays…

And remember any person for the good times you shared…

Just be happy like those memories…”

Will you?

- Poonam

P.S. My wonderful readers...I know many of you have read this post and Thank you so much for your love...I had disabled the comment section after I had published it, coz I had wished to hear from the ones for whom my words were meant for...
Thank you once again :)

Restrained Yet Unfettered...

2011-06-09T15:04:00.000+05:30

Whether I keep my eyes,

open or close,

I see nothing,

but

Darkness

Groping in dark,

I fear losing myself...

My only treasure,

Has being stolen...

How could I not protect it?

Why did they leave me?

What is left?

Only the feeling of

Bereft...

Confined in dark,

I am trying to annihilate...

Ferreting out,

Standing on edge of the cliff,

I still cannot see anything,

But

I want to fly...

Words...

My Wings,

Once

I soared,

among other birds

elegantly...

Reverance for words,

Words...taken away from me,

since long...

I need my wings,

I shall soar down,

Towards

My End.

P.S. I don't know why,I feel its incomplete...

I Feel Close To YOU Tonight...

2011-05-05T10:38:00.000+05:30

"There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you"-Maya Angelou

As the quote says, I am here to continue with the third part of the love series. You can read the first part CHANGE?! and the second If Only YOU Knew...

Simplicity and calmness was her jewel.But she was also the one who never gave up easily.When he came in her life, she saw the world through his eyes and thereon the world looked beautiful.

Its been months since their last meet. Somehow the distance have made her to love him more.

Seed of love had been sown, and it is like a tree now, growing each day elegantly with its strong roots.

That night she had cried, only cried.But not tonight! How can his love ever make her cry?

Breeze sings,

And the Leaves dances on its tunes,

As it passes by me,

I can feel the touch of your love...

Walking on flower-bed,

Stretching my arms,

Breathing in the air,

Bringing the essence of your love...

Your love,

as sweet as,

Smell of first rains,

Walking in it,

Drenching in your love,

I close my eyes,

I see you,

My fingers longing to touch your face,

But,

I won't,

Fearing I may loose you...

Dawn shines with Hope,

We will meet soon!

Under this soothing starry sky,

I Feel Close To YOU Tonight!

I know you do too,

Coz,

The Star brightens,

As I say,

I Love You!

He too was an adamant guy, anger always on his nose. The time when the girl came in his world, everything changed. He adored her simplicity.Loosing an argument with her made him more than happy, because her smile was his life now.

Life happened to me,

When I met you!

Your Smile,

reaches your eyes,

Your Eyes,

Speaks for your heart,

Your Heart,

Beautiful, Loving, Caring...

You are a rose with thorns,

Thorns, so

No one will dare to crush you,

I am not scared of the pain,

Coz,

Staying away from you,

My heart cries with pain...

My love,

Like the Beautiful Horizon!

where,

Sky kisses the earth..

Our fingers have never entwined,

But,

Our Soul is,

With Love!

Please take care of yourself,

My Life without you in it,

is not a Life at all!

I knew,

I would be away from You,

But,

I am missing you,

more than I thought!

I Love You,

I know, You do too,

Coz,

The Star Brightens,

As Your Smile,

I Feel Close To YOU Tonight!

They both wanted to hear those three words by each other, because sometimes saying is all that is yearned.

Love does not have an ending, if it has, then How can it be love?

*Its a path that starts from Forever and ends at Never...

But the elegant tree even with its strong roots can be uprooted by fierce of the nature or by the senseless power of human anytime! The Story continues...

The song says about the emotions of both hearts. Far Yet So Near...

My words may fail to touch your heart, the song won't! I am not gonna say how tender it is, experience it yourself, relive the lovely memories with your love...and Do Let Me Know about your feelings... :)

*Quote

Love Story-Teri Yaadein download

found at bomb-mp3 search engine

Today, I am writing only for You...

2011-04-26T17:07:00.000+05:30

Life is indeed Short, but Beautiful because of the hearts I met or came across. I don't know what Tomorrow has for me, I have Today & don't want to miss it. Before it gets too late, I want to Thank the most Special ones in my life.

You came in my life, when I was alone or rather I should say, you understood me. I will always remember the first ever words you said to me.You have always conveyed your emotions by your words, the words I often misinterpreted and I am extremely sorry for it. Yes! I was too naive. Those only touched my soul, when the same feelings bloomed in my heart, you were always talking about.

Believe Me! You have made me to realize "Life is like a rose, though surrounded by thorns, Beauty is its essence."

I don't know whether you would be reading this or not, but My Words are Only For You!

When I look at a flower,

It reminds me of you,

Sweetness in your words,

Never loses its fragrance...

Unlike a flower that withers away,

Your words about love & wisdom,

Comes along the way,

Gives the strength to stand by the Truth,

Do not let me to drift away...

I gaze at the brightest star,

Twinkling, Smiling from far,

I make a wish for you,

May life treat you with gentleness,

Your fingers entwined with love,

He himself singing a song of love for you,

High above!

Mind : A blank slate,

You carved someone elses' words,

World of ~~Love~~ that you create!

Love,

As vast as the sky,

As deep as the ocean,

Beyond the Horizon,

You may never know,

How could you?

You have robbed their love!

Reality is shining bright,

Along with The Silhouette,

That will always last long,

and stand upright!

Yes! I doubted you,

But then,

I trusted too,

You deceived me,

saying,

"Thanks for being so nice!"

Unknowingly or Knowingly, you are blessed by many souls. You only have their love and blessings as your strength. They have wholeheartedly put their Trust in your hands, Do Not Crush It!

Never will I say,

Why I met you?

Never will I regret,

Being your Friend!

You are always in my prayer,

Coz,

Somewhere I still Do Care!

The One I Loved, Now I am Scared of...

2011-04-12T22:15:00.000+05:30

Don't ask me the reason for what I'm writing today,

I may not be able to answer it,

I have come far away.

Emotions are swirling,

Thoughts are varying,

It's difficult to pen them down,

Let my fears get drown,

Never did I want to feel like this!

Where is the Bliss?

Don't ask me the reason for what I'm writing today,

I may not be able to answer it,

I have lost something!

Solitude : My Solace,

Taught me,

Life is not about living like an Ace,

Seek answers yourself,

Gracefully you have to face,

But

It's Scorching My Soul,

Pain taking its toll,

No eyes to see it,

Coz There is no wound to be seen,

It's deep within!

Staring at My Reflection,

Who are you?

The only question!

This can't be me,

No, It can never be!

I have lost 'Being Me'

Am I living for someone else?

Do I Smile just for a sake?

Let me be "Me",

Is all I wanted to be!

I am feeling so lonely today,

I have come far away!

Yearning,

To be heard,

To be seen,

To be felt!

Look in my eyes,

You will see the distant hurt,

Unveil the Pain behind My Smile,

Hold me close for a while!

Solitude: Once My Solace,

The One I Loved, Now I am Scared of!

If Only YOU Knew...

2011-03-25T16:44:00.000+05:30

The story is continuation of CHANGE?! I thought to give it a try, and work on my creative skills of writing sentences. ;)

"So, family must be searching a guy for marriage"

"Hmm...Did you see anyone?"

"Going to...You love someone?"

"Yes"

"Who?"

"Naa...I won't"

"Tell me, You know I am a good secret keeper."............"OK, I won't ask you again, if it hurts."

The next few seconds silence talked for them. They both understood this language and it was never disturbing. No one took the initiative to speak. Finally the guy spoke as by now he knew her calmness, calmness for which he had fallen in love with her.

"When are we meeting?"

"I don't know. You live so far &..."

"Aa, aa, aa, not that excuse again. I still live in this world."

"Don't say that! I will kill your devilish side and dare you babble the nasty talk of yours!"

"AHA! The longest sentence you must have said till today."

"Do not start it."

"Sorry! But as the saying goes *'Clocks slay time...Time is dead as long as it is being clicked off by little wheels; only when the clock stops does time come to life'."

"OK,OK, Mr.Brainy, We will meet soon." She said between her laughter. "Bye!"

"Bye!" (See You, My Love)

She continued to laugh after hanging up, tears rolled down her cheeks. Time! brought the souls together and parted them too.

It will be the time, that will prove whether they are destined to be together till eternity?

Amidst the sound of koyal, kids playing, evening walks of elderly, couples strolling, their hands entwined; they sat facing the horizon. The reflection like twinkling stars on the ripples of waves from sun rays and everything about the evening was enthralling for them.

The cool sea breeze was ruffling her hair, though she was gazing at the waves, through corner of her eyes, she felt his eyes looking at her. Her lips curved a bit, their eyes met and both smiled.

"Did you meet the guy?"

"Yes. I did."

"So?"

"What?"

"Why do you always wait for the question to be put forward?"

"How will I know what you want to hear? I don't have a telepathic mind."

"Fine! What was his reply?"

"Ain't any!" She said quietly.

"Forget it. He doesn't know what he has lost!"

"Mr. Brainy, deep thought?!.....Let's concentrate on you for a while."

"Exactly my point. I want you to concentrate on me."

"Shut up!" She giggled."If you find your love, how will you confess or what will you say?"

"I will rather sing."

"WOW! That's cool. Sing it now, I want to hear it."

"For whom?"

"Oh....Where is your power of imagination?"

He never had to use any imagination, because his love was right in front of him.

He began to sing, she closed her eyes as his mystical voice touched her soul. Tears warmed his eyes and his voice choked once, even she sensed it as the closed eyes flickered. He continued singing and her feet tapping along.

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The girl always waited for the boy to ask questions, since she loved to hear them from him. He was the only person in her life who understood her silence. She wasn't just enjoying the tunes of the song with closed eyes, but she had no strength to look in his tender eyes. That night she cried, only cried...

Your angelic Look,

Your alluring Smile,

Can't stop loving you,

not even for a while...

You are my world without an end,

Will love you,

Now and forever,

But,

My feelings are restrained!

It's getting harder to stay away from you,

If only YOU knew,

How much I love you!

If only YOU knew,

I love Only You!

You can never make someone to fall in love with you. You can control your own emotions and never that someone.

Listen to the song which he sang for his loved one, which was only for her! But where he sings as will fight for it, he will never do it, because she will never wish for it!

Bryan Adams - Everything I Do (.. download at emp3

*Quote by William Faulkner

Those eyes were waiting for someone…

2011-03-21T14:41:00.000+05:30

Those eyes spoke thousand words,

Words behind the silence…

They never lie, always say the truth,

Truth, I was unaware of!

I could see hidden scars,

Scars, deepening each day,

When I look at the eyes,

Eyes, waiting for someone…

Pain bloomed in heart,

Heart, cried, cried a lot…

Those eyes, never filled with tears,

Tears could have shown the fear…

Why were they sad?

What will make the heart smile?

When will be the pain put to rest?

So many questions arising in my mind, but I couldn’t ask anyone nor to the eyes I am talking about.

Traveling by train has become a part of my life. During traveling, I come across many faces in the crowd. Strangers, but sometimes even without any talks we know each other as daily commuters. Usually the faces show tiredness, eagerness to reach home, anger due to some reason. But the day I saw this woman, I don’t know why somehow I realized there’s hidden emotion, because her eyes expressed it all. I never heard her interacting with the fellow commuters, only once a while.

From days to months, I have seen her. Her face though serene, no creases of worry, but had turmoil of emotions behind the serenity. The question, “Why?”

I don’t know what I should call this; probably I had wanted to know the answer to “Why” and it did come along.

My close friends’ cousin was a victim of 11 July’06 train blasts, and still hasn’t recuperated, is in coma since. One day it happened that I, my friend and the woman were in same compartment. They weren’t sitting close; I and my friend began to talk after long meet. As my friends destination arrived, before getting down she told me the woman is her aunt, the mother of that cousin. For a while I just couldn’t come out of the shock, I had just heard. The wait once I could see in her eyes, now I wasn’t able to look into them, after I got the answer to my “Why?”

Recently after long time I came across her, and what I saw in those eyes, along with the wait, is Hope!

Now, when I know the reason for the wait, I can only pray!

I pray,

For the eyes to be happy,

For the Mother to hear “Ma” again,

To hold on is - Hope!

Hope,

The heart will smile,

The pain is put at rest forever,

The wait in the eyes will soon come to an end!

I can no other answer make, but, thanks, and thanks...

2011-03-15T22:33:00.000+05:30

WOW! STYLISH BLOGGER, AM I! Speechless, instead will quote what Christian Bale said after receiving the Oscar,

"What a room full of talented and inspirational people, and what the hell am I doing here, in the midst of you? Such an honor" (No need to guess How Happy I am! Obviously the room for me is this blogging world amongst you all :)

Thanks to one & only The Silhouette for this award. Eon Heath as he loves to call himself (His precious gift) His name might be strange sounding, but he truly can embed his emotions through his writings elegantly. His words have the strength and are soothing too.

I love to pass this award to all you awesome people who have always been with me, THANKS A TON!

(Not in any specific order)

SOLILOQUIES

!!! Flavors !!!

A-Canary's-Diary

About Nothing

Abstract Thoughts !

Aesthetic Blasphemy

astrosunilnomy

Dil ki Baat, Blog ke saath

Down the lane...

EMBODYING EMOTIONS

Freebird

Heart Speak

...in love with me and life

...Its my life

It's not just on paper

My Friendship

My Weirdest Dreams

Philosophic Psychedelia

Pratibha The Talent

Reigning Wanderer

Stumbled Over Ubiquitous Life

Wisdomism

Words do matter.

Finally, the most difficult, Seven things about myself (as a part of after receiving the award), for which I have been delaying this post ;)

1. SIMPLICITY! I truly believe in "Everything should be made as simple as possible, but not one bit simpler." Albert Einstein

Life is about living every moment (Though one of my favorite hobby is sleeping )

2.MUSIC, My Strength and weakness too, I can never live without it. My day begin and end with listening music. My Mom used to panic after looking at her daughter who listens music even during her med exams. (Don't You freak out, I never wrote any song in my answer paper :p

3.I always ask Questions, if I don't understand any thing (Now you know why I sometimes leave a question in my comments sometimes) even if it may sound stupid :P

I never regret after asking something, but just once, yes once,have the regret, Why the Hell I left such stupidest reply! Should have read it again and then commented. More over my guilt feeling, It must have hurt the blogger, and I am really SORRY for it! (It still haunts me)

Don't be surprised to see the empty spaces, I have no idea what to write more. My life is all about being simple, learning, listening music, bugging people with my questions ;)

I am going to make this simple for me. Its been quite a while now, most of you know me.

Write something about me (make me smile with those compliments ;) and criticism is always welcome, Its in a way learning too!

(The link to your blog opens to the writings which are my favorite, till now.I am sure there would be many more to come. APPLAUD TO ALL)

P.S. The title is a quote by William Shakespeare (My brain doesn't function with such innovation :P

CHANGE?!

2011-03-05T23:44:00.000+05:30

This post has been published by me as a part of the Blog-a-Ton Season 2 edition 18; the eighteenth edition of the online marathon of Bloggers; where we decide and we write. To be part of the next edition, visit and start following Blog-a-Ton.

"Have you ever liked someone?"

"Yes..."

"Then?"

"Then, What?"

"Did you tell him?"

"No! It was just a crush."

It was months back they met and within short span understood each other. Confiding, sharing sweet memories, probably they never did with their friends. Destiny had something else for them. Time changed, they had to part away. It did hurt them but as said, Change may be good, if accepted wholeheartedly.

"Hello?"

"Hello! How are you? How has been the change?"

"Very good, How about you?"

"OK"

"So, family must be searching a guy for marriage"

"Hmm...Did you see anyone?"

"Going to...You love someone?"

"Yes"

"Who?"

"Naa...I won't"

"Tell me, You know I am a good secret keeper."

Love is an emotion of strong affection, a virtue of kindness, compassion. It also gave them strength to stay apart never confessing that they love each other. Since they knew being from different tradition, their family will never ever accept this relation and continued to live without being each others life.

Ties of different tradition, culture, how will their existence will end or get obscured? when Love is the only basis for all being.

Being with you,

Sharing those moments of pleasure,

I will always treasure...

Dream to be together,

Soul-mate forever,

Don't want it to be a Dream,

I want to live the Dream!

Can't deny,

Can't hide,

Can't runaway from

The Truth!

If I ever cross the boundary,

They would say,

This is not How we nurture,

This is not in our culture!

Don't know what to say,

Don't want to go astray...

Memories warm my eyes,

Our unnamed ties!

I will never be able to say,

"I Love You"

Ultimate Truth,

that

I Love You,

Yes, I do!

But its also True,

I will never be with You!

Love will never die,

It has to say Silent Goodbye...

Era has changed,

What have we gained?

Emotions being burnt,

What have we learned?

Should I be sad or ashamed?

When love is strangled,

in name of

"Honor Killing",

The Question,

Why is it prevailing?

Is Change really inevitable?

Change of thoughts,

Will anyone be able?

Change is what we wish to see,

Change is what we ought to bring!

Neither we need to fight for it,

Nor be scared by it!

Will WE be the CHANGE we wish to see?

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Oh My Darling, You Look Wonderful Tonight...

2011-02-14T09:08:00.000+05:30

How will I know?
I am in Love...

Is it Peaceful as a Dove,

A feeling of Heaven above...

Heart beats and pumps Blood,
Why is it said?
Its place where blooms a Love Bud...

Hippocampus regulates emotional activity,
When a ~~HEART~~ breaks,
Why is it called Insanity?

Battle of Mind and Heart,
How will the Love stay ever apart?
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I dream of you every night,

Its You,

who made my Life bright...

Drowning in Loneliness,

Its You,

who broke the Darkness...

Waited for you so long,

Its You,

I belong...

Despair,Forsaken,Melancholy,

You

sang the Love melody...

You make me Smile,

You make me Cry,

A kiss on my eyes,

makes the sadness to say Goodbye...

Rendezvous under moonlit starry sky,
I Clad in a saree,
Coz, You said once,
"I'll marry,
only if you wear saree"

Awestruck as you bend on knees,
& asked,
"Will you dance with me? Please"

Arms around my waist,
Mine around your neck,
Forgot everything rest...

Swaying along soothing music,
Close to you at that moment,
That moment of magic...

And then I asked you,
"Do I look alright?"
And you said,
*"Oh My Darling, You Look Wonderful Tonight..."

Do I Deserve This?
This Ultimate Bliss!

Captured my Heart,
Touched my Soul,
saying,
"I love you just the way you are..."

Tear fell on my cheek,
No words I could speak,
Silence spoke more than words,
Coz,
"Something's are best understood,
when they are not said,
Only felt..."

I dream of you every night,
I don't believe in Love At First Sight,
But,
If I meet you,
What if I just might...

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I am not even close to what its called as "Hopeless Romantic", but I do believe in Love. Even as Science explains that our emotions are regulated by our brain, How can I ever say someone, "I love you with all my Hippocampus"...NEVER!

It is an Eternal feeling when we say, "I Love You wholeheartedly..."

*Play the song...If you are along with your beloved, dance to its tune...and If still waiting for Someone Special...your electrical brain activity will definitely play this tune when you find your Love...Enjoy it!

	Various Artists - 087 - Eric Clapton - Wonderful Tonight .mp3

	Found at bee mp3 search engine

Happy Valentines Day...Lots of Love :)

"You will meet E.V.D.D."

2011-01-18T23:06:00.000+05:30

Moon-beaming night,

Still searching for the light...

Up-roaring electrical activity of neurons,

Questioning the presence of the norms...

A sign read, "You will meet E.V.D.D."

WHO? WHY? bugged my mind,

Unanswered questions of mankind...

Thoughts were on sway,

Strolling on my way...

Who am I going to meet?

Suddenly a voice,

"Hello!"

I did not expect you,

"In uncertainty, I am the one with you."

You are a belief,

may or may not be true...

"So believe",

NO,

(pricking blow of air)

See!

You always bring along,

Pain, Disappointment...

EXPECTATION, You Hurt...

"If you don't expect things,

Turn around and,

You will always meet me."

"SURPRISE!"

Surprise shone the ray,

Walking ahead on the way...

Thumping, Pounding, Attacking,

DON'T INTRODUCE YOURSELF,

You flash as Breaking news,

Transforming everything into blues...

VIOLENCE!

How long is your existence?

"If someone slaps you,

Turn your face"

For What? To get slapped again?

Never! NON-VIOLENCE...

Neither would turn the face,

Nor my hand would raise.

(But What if the resistance break?)

It caught me tight,

"Accept it, I am in your mind,

I am the fire that sets action aflame."

Also the woe for mankind,

Too many of You, DESIRE,

leads to Depression and

Obsession....

Panting, Shuddering,

Someone blind-folded, whispered,

"Relax,

Keep walking,

Do EXPECT,

Do DESIRE,

But Don't be dependent,

No place for embitterment"

I could sense the light,

"Right of liberty,

Thoughts with clarity,

You can't have Happiness,

One need to pursue it,

You can do it!

Open your eyes,

Coz You DESERVE it..."

INCEPTION...

2011-01-05T22:44:00.000+05:30

I stumbled,

I felled,

I rose,

I flied...

The blues,

The adieus,

The azure,

The furore...

Away from a feign-er,

Away from a faker...

A gazer,

A bit flatterer...

Grisly,

Ghastly,

Sometimes woebegone,

Sometimes forlorn...

I am affable,

I am amiable...

Smarten,

Smitten,

Infatuation,

Fascination...

Search for self,

Not so easy,

To know thyself...

But

Unremitting assiduous,

Ceaselessly pertinacious...

An Enlightened Journey,

I am walking,

Learning,

Thriving,

Expressing!!!

New Perception,

It's the

INCEPTION...

I end this post but begin this wonderful awesome Journey ahead with my Favorite Anne Franks words from The Diary Of A Young Girl, "I want to go on living even after my death! And therefore I am grateful to God for giving me this gift, this possibility of developing myself and of writing, of expressing all that is in me."

Silently Expressive...Dedicated to My Lovely Blogger Friends :)

2010-12-25T21:24:00.000+05:30

Tender dainty bud,

Maternal to a Soul,

From this ferocious world,

Its savagery, Its treachery...

Though maternal,

An unrestrained suffocation,

A redundant trepidation...

Time to unleash,

To anticipate,

Exigence to Emancipate...

Bud bloomed one day,

"Freedom" the Soul wished to say,

World: Strange, fierce,

Never prayed for any reinforce...

Transcended towards light,

Enduring versatile flight,

Iridescent, Kaleidoscopic colors,

Now on Souls counselors...

Violet inspired to spark Imagination,

& reach your Destination...

Love for Humanity,

Its still not a vanity...

Indigo,Taught awareness, wisdom,

Failure would be seldom...

Blue, will for peace, How to communicate,

Only Love be reciprocate...

Green, maintain harmony, Good Health,

Worlds greatest Wealth...

Yellow, Be energetic, alleviate confusion,

Always take a firm Decision...

Orange, maintain Equilibrium, Creativity,

Will help to achieve Liberty...

Red gave Security, Passion,

Work with Dedication,

Determination!!!

Today the Soul is incessantly living,

Opulent with Knowlege,

Still learning,

That will abide in perpetuity...

Its my Soul...

Merry Christmas to all & I Wish Santa Claus to gift with what you have prayed for! :)

365 days long back I had stepped in this wonderland called "Blogspot" with no knowledge of its magic. Its mystical power have hypnotized me (MAKING ME CRAZIER!!!) . I love to walk on this land, swim,drown in its craziness, fly breathe its scenting air. Kindly bear my writing as I know I'm not good when it comes to sentences.

BIRTH OF MY BLOG...ON 25 DEC 2009...

My best buddy Jayshri (Truly a "WHITE COAT WEIRDO"as she loves to call herself) encouraged me to start a blog, which would be, My Space OR My Place.

(I LOVE & MISS YOU A LOT JAYSHRI...)

NAMING CEREMONY...

There is no such word as "CARDIGRAZIOSO". I had wanted to be a cardiac surgeon, call it "Destiny" or "Hard Work" I am happy to be a Homeopath. My love for Cardiology created "CARDI" and "GRAZIOSO", for the graceful words which I love to pen down. :)

HUMOROUS HISTORY BEHIND MY FIRST POEM ;)

I was deciding what to perform in my final year of school camp (Dancing was out of question, & I spared my friends with singing ;) THEN WHAT ELSE? Once I was watching Tom & Jerry Kids Show, where the characters were fighting by using proses. THAT WAS IT! I wrote Riddles on identifying friends personality in form of poem and prose.HEY! THEY LOVED IT. The loud applause proved it.

Though after 7 years, I took it seriously on rhyming.BETTER LATE THEN NEVER!

I was too jittery, whether my simple words would convey my feelings..As I always end up writing something serious (reflects my Gemini Trait )

My blog has turned one today, with this even my writing, rhyming. When I read my oldposts and the new ones, OH! WOW! I HAVE IMPROVED A LOT...IT FEELS AWESOME :)

FEELINGS AS A BLOGGER...

I feel glad and honored when I receive an appreciation saying my words made its readers Smile, made them think over a Cause.

Its important to reply who leaves a comment, as they have taken out time and read the expressions, in the world where TIME IS MONEY!

Sometimes bloggers post are so intense and powerful that I end up replying "Intense", "Deep", "Beautiful", "Thoughtful" as at that very moment I lack for words...NOT THAT I HAVEN'T UNDERSTOOD IT!

From core of my heart, every cell of my endocardium, I Thank to my amazing fellow bloggers for always being along with me in this fascinating World of Blogging! (Not in any specific order)

Kay...an awesome poet whose silence reaches out many miles...Thanks for being my first friend in this wonderland.

Beyond ...your expressions are really beyond those few words, filled with love, wisdom...

Ritika Patel you have always been with me along this journey...even i wait for your lovely reply...Hope this friendship stays forever :)

Blasphemous Aesthete Actually the previous name "Anonymous Someone" made me land on your blog...love the complexity of your blogs name and writings...most favorite "Break Me, make Me"

Vishal Raj awesomeness of your post "Waiting for you" made me a regular visitor at your blog (btw you haven't written since long)

Rashmi M Love when your heart speaks...and the perceptions

Rajesh Waiting myself to explore the beautiful forts, especially southern India.

magiceye Truly a magical eye you have there...I have come to know more about my hometown Mumbai through your beautiful pics.(How do you manage 5 blogs?...Its superb! )

Rohini your weirdest dreams are innovative...courageous...Love them :)

Alcina Mysterious words (and name too, as said will remember the Greek meaning ;) Thanks for your gifts :)

Dr.Pratibha (talented as your name) Dr.Raksha (Glad when you fly and visit here)

Alka Gurha Humorous but always thought evoking writing (you should add some smiley widget :)

Always Happy Keep smiling :) Aashi I love to visit your Dreamland...

OK THANK YOU SO...WAIT...WAIT...How can I forget this blogger? I'm not a blogwalker but Its the only blog I use to read without following (not even anonymously).I first visited the blog after reading an appreciable criticism(yes I did like it) by this blogger. Ok need to raise the curtain, the most liked blogger Sourav C.Pandey. I have no idea why but Your 'I "KILLED" Time' post made me to comment first time and thereon no end.Thanks a lot (YES THE THANKS) for naming me as "Silently Expressive"...APT :) Has anyone scrolled till end of his blog and read...Its awesome.Do read it! (Yes,Ignorance is Bliss,Sourav)

THANKS A LOT ONCE AGAIN TO EVERYONE WHO READS MY EXPRESSIONS!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL :)

I love the kaleidoscopic colors of life, but without one I'm still incomplete...

A restless emptiness,

Pack with Happiness, Liveliness...

Prepare for the Unknown,

This is your Expression Zone...

Don't live in fantasy,

But open the door to a Mystery...

Sometimes be inconspicuous,Never lack (it),

Its the color Black...

STILL AN AMATEUR...

P.S.Please don't unfollow me if I haven't mention you...I heartily Thank You for supporting me through this journey of wonderland and I hope it continues... :) :) :)

PP.S.I have mentioned the actual meaning of the colors in a rainbow. A help by Google ;)

EMANCIPATION...

2010-12-21T21:52:00.000+05:30

Yet another dark days,

My mind dreadfully sways...

Cyclonic emotions,

Anguish notions...

How can I make it windless?

All the unbearable stress...

He would never say what I want to hear,

Neither would I, Someone wouldn't bear...

No support for a relation to nurture,

Because of the so-called culture...

Falling short of target,

Achieving it, I hate...

Tired of convincing,

WHY?

I don't need such a thing,

What I want to do is only HEALING...

Thoughts of trepidation,

State of consolidation...

Mind voracious,

Heart vexatious...

Do I desire to runaway?

NO!

Though I'm scared,

I'm tired,

Never will I runaway!

But I want to cry

YES I WANT TO!

Tears, not flowing,

An unrestrained feeling...

IS "I" SOUNDING SELFISH?

NO!

Its me who is hurt,

My emotions being burnt,

Its MY LIFE,

ITS ME,

coz If I die,

everything will cease to matter.

What I wish for?

Neither sympathy,

Nor empathy,

No consolation,

Its EMANCIPATION...

PLEASE LET HIM STAY.......

2010-12-16T09:29:00.000+05:30

9 months- You nurtured me,
Protected me in your womb.......

I'm a part of you,
Abandoned me......HOW COULD YOU?
Where are you?
Can you hear me?
Look Where I Stand,
Where I Belong.........
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Found besides garbage forlorn,
My cry one couldn't hear,
No one to see my tear.............

How I grew up?
First step on burning hot road,
First syllable neither "MA" nor "PA"...........

My Home,
Railway platform or wide street,
Dreams under the starry sky in the scorching heat...........

I wake up,
As a STRANGER to this world,
& the world STRANGE to me..........

Eyes:Search for shelter,
        for food, for water,
& Search for MY BELOVED............

Hands: To work (LONGING TO HOLD YOUR FINGERS)
To beg,
Wipe cars on traffic signals,
Sell things in train,
Serve tea in hotels,
Making fireworks, polishing shoes..........
Isn't it great that I work?
As a Child (LABORER)

I don't want NGO's help,
Nor any benevolence............

Yes, Summers burn me,
        Rains drown me,
        Winters chill me.............

Every night,
I Pray,
Not for me,
For someone like me,
If he have breathe this polluted world,
NEVER ABANDON HIM.

If No,PLEASE LET HIM STAY............
IN THE WARMTH.........OF HIS MOTHERS WOMB.........
ONLY..........FOREVER.................

(Above poem is one of my old post )

It would be really sad, if each child prays for such a wish before going to sleep.
Akshaya Patra...Unlimited food for education is a foundation with the vision, that “No child in India shall be deprived of education because of hunger.”
A simple thought and help from each one of us will help to brighten up a child's life.

THIRST, HUNGER,

Child's silent ANGER...

Whom shall he reach out?

Is there anyone to care about?

Starvation,

Ambition,

NO FOOD, NO EDUCATION...

On whom is the Blame?

Government, And several excuses,

OH NO! NOT THE BLAME GAME,

It would be so LAME!

Taking the responsibility,

It would be called HUMANITY...

Simple thought of benevolence,

That can make a great difference...

Aim for CHANGE,

No child-an estrange...

Life would be a sunshine,

With Education,

And Growth of our nation...

A helping hand whenever,

Will bring a beautiful SMILE,

That will last forever,

Spreading happiness many mile...

And A Child will NEVER PRAY,

"PLEASE LET HIM STAY..."

MY SANTA CLAUS...

2010-12-14T21:57:00.000+05:30

"Dad", was not the first word...As I learned to speak,

But he was the first one I played hide-and-seek...

Holding his fingers...I walked,

I swayed, I falled...He told me,

Get up, Don't stop!!!

Sitting on his shoulders playfully,

Carrying me when I was not sleepy...

Dad brought me my favorite Parle-G,

Boxes of ice cream Kwality...

Shouting "My Daddy Strongest",

Rhyming "Johny Johny", "Yes Papa"...

Bike ride to school everyday,

Rarely wrote "My Father" as an essay...

Learning his principles I grew up,

One of them "Never Give Up"

Be confident...Be honest

Also

Be polite...Do sympathize...

"Do not fear being a girl.

Step out...Stand smartly in this world"...

Supports me when I want to make a difference,

Hurts when he does not show confidence...

Taught me to endeavour,

He is an enamour...

He is my Santa Claus,

Gifts me...Blesses me each day,

No need of any cause...

How will I stay away after marriage?

OH GOD! Please give me the courage...

A Daughter is her Fathers Treasure,

Love which no one could ever measure...

Its called "Kanyadaan"...No wonder...

I love this quote from the movie "Pursuit of Happyness"...where a father teaches his child a wonderful thought
Chris Gardner: Don't ever let someone tell you, you can't do something. Not even me.All right?.
Christopher : All right.
Chris Gardner: All right. You got a dream, you gotta protect it. People can't do something themselves, they wanna tell you that you can't do it. You want something? Go get it.

P.S.The word "Dad" dates back to the sixteenth century, or possibly even earlier? It may have originated with the Welsh word "Tad" (meaning father), which later mutated to Dad. The word "Father" is derived from the Old English "Foeder".

THE MYSTERY

2010-12-04T23:36:00.000+05:30

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Jack: Handsome, heroic personality,

& his appreciable serenity,

Extrovert, exuberant as he was,

No harm he could ever cause...

Anxious to know more,

Eager to reach a things core...

Day began with alarm,

“Heal the world,

Make it a better place...”

Never changed it,

It gave him SOLACE...

Why did the song give him solace?

WHY did he need it?

Loved to walk to school,

Warmth in the wool.

Today was a different day,

Dark, sky more gray,

Strolled along new pathway,

Turned at a bend,

& Halted in front of a house,

Sensed strange mystical power,

Just few steps to cross the barrier,

Saw the STATUE of a WARRIOR,

It’s look piercing,

Heart started racing,

Hurried his pace,

Running away from the haze...

Shared with his friend,

Came across the same bend,

The HOUSE was NOWHERE to be seen,

It was there, IT HAD BEEN,

Assured him did not make a story,

This was beginning of “THE MYSTERY...”

His mind hid many emotions,

No one to share,

No one to hear…

Behind the exuberance lay his dark sad life,

From childhood till now,

At home the same scenario,

His parents fighting,

Without realizing it would affect his upbringing

Shouting “WE DON’T CARE”…

“DO YOU REMEMBER.......”his alarm sang. Its strange, he never changed it. Who did it? The small room treasured the memories of Jacks childhood & the dreams of future. He stepped on the ice cool flooring. Near the window was his study table, Jack was puzzled, where lay his most precious thing, his ‘Memoir’, “The Mystery of my life”. He signed it as Arthur, his favourite hero. It had absorbed his entire life without questioning. He never forgets to lock it up in his drawer, but today it was on the table.

He tried to remember the occurrence of yesterday night, which memory did he carve on the page? Lightly he touched the diary and was about to open it, suddenly a flash of lightning distracted him. He looked up, surveyed from left to right but unable to trace the source of it. As soon as he started reading his memoir, it flashed again. This time he saw the iron coat warrior standing on the stone pavement with a piercing look. Jack couldn’t move an inch, not even a twitch of a muscle. A blink of eyes & the warrior vanished.

Jack snapped back to reality by the loud noises from his parents downstairs.

Unlike his parents’ behaviour, Jack was kind hearted and his strength being passionate. This has been possible only by his tiny room, for him his entire world. He had sown the seeds of hope and dreams, nurtured it each day with his love and now the fruits of dreams coming true were beginning to ripe.

Jack never gave up, but with each dawn he was losing a part of his life, unable to realize it, WHAT?

Raced downstairs,

Straight out of home,

Someone was out to get him,

Did not dare turn back,

Reaching the class,

Students jealous of him,

Sitting behind,

Watching them through corner of his eyes,

“Arthur, Arthur”

WHO ELSE KNEW HIS SIGNATORY NAME?

The same warrior standing in front of the door,

“The boys are going to hurt you”

“NO”

“YES, look behind”

Jack turned; they were whispering and gazing at him.

He asked “What?”

“Nothing” they answered.

Blood boiling, blood shot eyes,

“Criticizing me”,

Rage running through entire body,

Held the pen as if sword,

Thrashed them, torn muscles.

“BLOOD, BLOOD”

Laughing, sighing,

Trembling hands, shivering legs,

Under thunderous sky,

Warrior abraded him in the mysterious house.

Darkness creeping,

Air chilling…

Screeching, horrifying,

Enchanting sounds,

“RUN, RUN FAST",

Across the room,

Something coming,

Couldn’t see,

“RESVE, RESVE”, Jack was shouting,

Hard thud on his face,

Bleeding woke up in his room,

Breathe of relief,

But no, it was not!

Memoir still on table,

Hurriedly opened last page,

Read the events,

‘Dark gray sky,

Entering mysterious house,

NO HE NEVER DID, It can’t be true,

Friend at the bend,

Assuring not making the story,

The beginning of mystery! WHAT WHEN?

RAGE, FEAR,

Is it a death trap?

PAIN cutting like a knife,

Mind numbing,

STEALING THE MELODY…

Nothing to gain,

Everything to lose,

No one to hold on,

No one to love,

No sound of hope,

Crying incessantly,

Someone clutched his hand

Shaking, “Jack, Jack”

With all his strength opened the eyes,

Mom, dad relieved,

INSCRUTABLY MYSTERY,

Paranoia, his condition called “SCHIZOPHRENIA”

Schizophrenia, also sometimes called split personality disorder, is a chronic, severe, debilitating mental illness. statistics about schizophrenia include that it affects men about one and a half times more commonly than women. It is one of the psychotic mental disorders and is characterized by symptoms of thought, behavior, and social problems.The sufferer may hear voices or see people that are in no way present. The individual with this disorder may also have disorganized speech, disorganized behavior.

People with schizophrenia often resist treatment. They may not think they need help because they believe their delusions or hallucinations are real. In these cases, family and friends may need to take action to keep their loved one safe.

The patients pain and suffering must be understood, isolating the individual will never help him. What needs is, CARE, SUPPORT AND LOVE.

Love increases,

If you share,

Never say,

"I DON'T CARE",

Speak up:"Don't worry,

I'm here"

Wish for a love story,

Its indeed a wonderful MYSTERY!

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amour.......

2010-11-23T22:22:00.000+05:30

In arms of my mother,

On shoulder of my father.....

Gait waddling,

Cutely swaying.....

Fingers curled around their finger,

WHAT holds them TOGETHER?

Teasing,fighting,

My little sibling....

Notorious,mischievous,

Words are less,

But SOMETHING binds the TOGETHERNESS!

Incoherent conversation,

Friendship: A tender relation.....

Secrets,pillow fights,sleepover,

WHY do I wish it to be FOREVER?

Stupidity of young age,

Heart beating as ran a mileage.....

First crush,an intense emotion,

WHAT created the INFATUATION?

When I close my eyes,

A look of him makes me surprise.....

A life long tie,

To last even in Eternity.....

Don't want to arise,

But to Fall.....

WHY do I wish for the FALL?

No need of a definition,

Only HEARTFELT emotion.....

We crave for IT,

WISH to RECEIVE a BIT......

SHIVER at thought of LOSING,

ITS a most PRECIOUS feeling.....

Its amour...LOVE.....CAN ONLY BE LOVE!!!

LOVE...holds the fingers TOGETHER...binds the TOGETHERNESS...makes Friendship to last FOREVER...created the INFATUATION...I or anyone...Don't WISH to ARISE...But to FALL IN amour...LOVE!!!

(amour :word for Love in French)

AUDACITY OF A MOTHER.....

2010-11-05T15:48:00.000+05:30

A single cell to a foetus,

Life forming in her uterus.....

Brightened her days,

As morning sun rays....

Her face glows,

As moonlit river flows.....

First kick,First movement,

Treasured every moment.....

9 months as vital organ of body,

Taking his first breathe,

Child was ready.....

Painful labor, Nervous tremor,

Hearing his cries,

Tears welled up in her eyes.....

Baby in her arms,

Exhilaration,emotion,

How beautiful is this notion!!!

Touch soothing,

Eyes twinkling,

Voice babbling.....

News changed her existence,

Nothing else, Only Silence!!!

IT CAN'T BE TRUE,

HOW CAN IT BE?

Her small little angel,

Diagnosed having LEUKEMIA.

Ears longing to hear "MUMMY",

Sweetheart under painful chemotherapy.

Mind sighing as a wave,

Motherhood-made her brave.....

Salute to her courage,

& All the Smiles,

SMILE...that NEVER REACHED HER EYES!

P.S.As an Intern when I was posted in pediatrics ward, all the eagerness to learn something new and more...couldn't ignore all these cute little children suffering from Leukemia (cancer of blood-forming cells in the bone marrow)...their innocence & sweetness...moreover the love & strength of a mother...looking after her child...I still remember the anxious questions of a mother whether her child will lead a normal life?....after every 2-3 months the child has to be admitted for the chemotherapy cycle or treating the recurrent infections.....even through all these...A MOTHER NEVER SHOWS TIREDNESS...HER EYES REFLECTS THE HIDDEN EMOTIONS...But one can't stand to look into the eyes which shows so much courage.

I think AUDACITY is the only word for her expressions!

I'M HIS PEARL.......

2010-10-17T21:26:00.000+05:30

Warmth of her shelter,

Sound of her laughter.....

Singing a lullaby,

Love as vast as sky.....

They came to know,

I was a girl child,

& Acted so wild.....

Killing of maternity,

She wanted to name me,

"AYUSHMATI" (person who has a long life)

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Running on dew,

Merrily I grew.....

Carried pretty woolen doll,

'Sakhi' whom I use to call.....

Little tender feet,

Walking under suns heat,

Soft, soothing hand,

Carrying hot brick & sand.....

Sad truth of this era,

I'm "SARAH" (princess,happy)

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What's beyond horizon?

I'm eager,

Jaunty as a deer,

Still a teenager.....

Learning is my age,

Tied in a knot of marriage,

Why so early?

I'm "AOLANI" (cloud of heaven)

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Vowing 7 Promises,

Always was My dream,

Falling in Love,

As beautiful as a stream.....

Burned me alive,

How can I survive?

Senseless Dowry,

All the brutality, cruelty.....

Hands with colorful Henna,

I'm "NIRVANA" (deep silence, ultimate bliss)

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Purposive filthy touch,

No one could I clutch.....

Ripped me,

Tore me,

Restless soul,

Awaiting for Justice,

Justice-slower than a tortoise,

Ears-that can't hear painful voice.....

I was & am "APARAJITA" (undefeated)

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I'm Loving, Caring, Kind,

But Never Ever try to Bind!

Flight of a Bird,

FREEDOM that's MY WORD!

I'M GODS "PEARL",

BLESSED BEING A GIRL!!!

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PURSUIT OF FREEDOM.......

2010-09-01T09:24:00.000+05:30

Darkness creeping in My Life,
Engulfing My Soul with its figure-less hands.....

I'm NOT the most HONEST,
I WON'T say I HAVE NEVER LIED.......

But,
DON'T FORCE ME doing things,
I DETEST, I LOATHE,
I won't be able to do them,
I WOULD NEVER!!!

It suffocates me,
Its KILLING my Conscience,
Its SOUL-ERODING.......

I'm NOT IMPRISON,
Yet I'm NOT FREE......

Saw My SHADOW in this darkness,
Someone said,
#"Never FEAR SHADOWS.
They simply means there's
a LIGHT SHINING
SOMEWHERE NEARBY"

Captured in this net,
I'll NEVER FALL APART!!!

Light of HOPE,
SPARK of Faith,
I'll COMBAT,
I'll STRIVE,
I'll BLOW AWAY THE DARKNESS,

& Let the LIGHT of FREEDOM SHINE in MY LIFE.......

#QUOTE BY RUTH RENKEL

PRECIOUS LIFELONG RELATION.......

2010-07-31T23:34:00.000+05:30

DEDICATED 2 ALL MY DEAR FRIENDS.....WHOM I KNW PERSONALLY....N MANY UNKNOWN LONG DISTANT FRNDS....WHOM I GOT INTRODUCED VIA SOCIAL NETWORKING SITE....FEEL LUCKY 2 KNW DEM......N GLAD FEW R FRM ACROSS BORDER 2......HAPPY FRIENDSHIP DAY :):):)

A LEPRECHAUN-jazzing up my life,

With his kibosh little things.

A jocular, jocund buddy

U r my friend in perpetuity.

Though not kindred,

Without u my life would end.

A friend: not good or bad in life’s dictionary,

Friendship doesn’t require any itinerary.

It’s a light springing rhythm in heart,

Not jeopardized by boundaries, color or caste.

Alongside friend : Enjoy high jinks,

Love to jive,

Don’t u ever leave…………

Can give up my life as a LEGACY,

For hearing ur never-ending EUPHONY,

Even in my ETERNITY………….

#Originally posted on 5 Feb'2010